No one knows how much my life has me upset right now. Growing up I didn't come from much, we were pretty well off when I was little, but things went bad for my dad's business and we lost everything. My dad was an alcoholic, but he provided for us. He made sure somehow we always had a roof over our heads. I always said that when I was out of school ( Read more... )

I need to update, Im here at work, so I don't know how much I'll get out...I'm not living at Ron's anymore...right now, I'm stayin at the hotel, until I can get something worked out. I don't know where Im goin to go. I don't have a whole lot of choices, my mother's house is disgusting. I couldnt live there if I wanted to she doesn't clean it and ( Read more... )

Well, Ryan read that last journal entry I made and we have been talking since then. He wasn't upset at our friend, for hanging out with me it was something totally differnt. And we cleared the air on a lot of shit. It's not that he's got my friends spying on me, it's more like when our mutual friends talk to him, all they do is talk about me and he ( Read more... )

You know it's pretty sad when I can't even go out to the local bar with a mutual friend of mine and Ryan's without Ryan giving him shit. All we did was go out and have a good time, danced and had a blast. But now Ryan is giving him shit. It's fucked up ( Read more... )

Well, one good thing has happened to me in a while...I got he promotion I've been waiting for, at work. I am now the new lead desk clerk. SO that's cool, I'll basically be the assistant manager...I'm not sure what my raise is goin to be. I only make .80 less than what the current LDC is making so who knows i want at least another 40 cent raise so ( Read more... )

So, this week of vacation has been very nice, I have been able to get a lot of rest and do a lot of things I normally haven't been able to do. I wanted to go to GA but things just didn't work out the way I planned so I didn't get to go see Kat, Jay, and Savanna. Thankfully they understand. Had another falling out with Ryan and this time his lil ( Read more... )

SO I'm supposed to go get Katie in a couple hours. I have been on vacation for almost a week now. I go back Monday. Darvi, the new girl quit...no surprise, so I'm back to having no life and all kindsa fucked up hours. It's gettin really old. But anyway I have plans today with Katie, we're going to go swimming here, and probably watch some movies ( Read more... )

I wish I had the gas to just get in my car and drive till there is no more road. I miss the days where I could do that. I had a bad attack today...nothing like I've ever experienced before. I freaked out sitting at the computer thinking about things and ended up on the floor hyperventaling and having severe chest pains. I have had panic/anxiety ( Read more... )

Finally updated my webpage and took some pics off that needed to come off. I need to get a picture of Teri scanned the one that is on there is a bad pic. I would have to go to my mom's house tho to get it scanned. So it will be a while before it is finished. But the page is up if you want to look. http://hometown.aol.com/davenportboi2380/ . Hope ( Read more... )