I dont know what to say. I feel like I made a mistake, but I hope I eventually realize it is for the best. I talked to a few people about this before I talked to Rick, and it always seemed like the better idea to end this before I got any deeper. but logic does nothing to fix my broken heart. What do you do when you break your own heart as well as ( Read more... )

Its been way too long since i have updated this thing, and a lot has changed. I am finally over Jeff.... well as much as i think i can be for now, yea i still have some feelings for him, and i still love him, but its not in the same way anymore. I have finally admitted to myself that it is over and while he is still one of my best friends and ( Read more... )

So last night i saw how much my 1.5 year relationship meant to jeff... it apparently meant it was OK to make out with his ex at my apartment 3 days after we broke up. thats what i get for being friendly, and inviting people over. Katie has never really been nice to me before this weekend, she said it herself, but i've always invited her over. now ( Read more... )

Not sure who still reads this anymore, or if you are sick of hearing from me recently... but this is a more positive post. I talked to Jeff yesterday, he came to me. I had never really know what i had hoped to accomplish by seeing him, but i accomplished it. He gave me a hug and kind of let me hold on for a bit and that hug really helped. it was ( Read more... )

I can't being myself to not call him or im him. i just don't undertsand why he's not talking to me. I don't think i did anything that would warrent me being ignored...well other than keeping calling him. i don't kno what i hope to achieve by seeing him or tlaking to him, i guess i just want to have my friend by me during this. like i said i am not ( Read more... )

I am trying to understand he needs time... but i need him, i don't mean as a boyfriend, i need my best friend. i am an absolute wreck and i not gunna try to hide that. i don't want to bitch at him, at just want him to be here. his presence makes me feel better and i don't kno wht else will make me feel better. i can't fucking sleep, i can't eat w/ ( Read more... )

I'm single again... lets start with that. Once again not my idea. I'm ok with it... thats not saying im not crushed, broken hearted,ect.. i am, but he said it was b/c he wasn't happy and while i wish i made him happy, and he makes me happy, i can't change the fact he is currently unhappy, and is unhappy with me as his girlfriend. I guess it just ( Read more... )

i got distracted with fillin u all in that i forgot half of the reason i wanted to make the previous post. jeff and i are back together and i am so happy about that, but it also scares me. i cling to him even more then i was before b/c i am afraid of him leaving again. i love him and i don't kno what i'd do without him. i also fear that the harder ( Read more... )

So its been one year since jeff and i started dating... well kinda, we started dating september last year (04), and made it offical oct. of that year... dated till july and then broke up untill dec. 05 when we got back together. Anyway... we made up an anniversay taking the day we got backtogether and subtracting the months we were appart. but ( Read more... )

I have a big test in my Roman Culture class at 5pm... i stayed up to 7am studying...well studying and talking to laura, but i have a lot more i need to do but i can't help thinking about nxt year ( Read more... )