Why the fuck am i so depressed i thought once u get rid of a problem things get alot better and so i did wut i felt was best and now i feel like shyt i cnat take it anymore i wanna scream i fuckin woke up crying last nyte i couldnt go  bac to sleep and then when i did i fuckin had a horrible dream ... why is this so hard for me wut ( Read more... )

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   ok well i dunno wut to say but um.. so ya i think that m/b my life is gonna be a little bit better seriously cuz let me see well i am so tired of all this bullshyt that has gone on in life ok ok where do i begin .... well friday i work till um.. 1200am went to lori's for the nyte juan called me and ya so he was being a ass hole as usual ryte lol ( Read more... )

   Valentines day is monday

fuck that shyt i hate that  day wit a heart beat seriosuly

fuck everyone i hate guys they sux royal ass hole

WHY me  ??   Why i ask seriously whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??????????????

    ok well u wanna no sumthin i went to my therepy  today and ya no sumthin i never realize wut a total moron i am i cant believe this is shyt i have always been accusing  juan of things he hasnt even done and it took me forever to realize that i am blaming him for nuthin and i didnt realize  that i did shyt like that when i cant blame him for ( Read more... )

 i made the biggest mistake of my life  it was to fall in love .... yup thats it... i fell in love and now i cant get out of it .... on top of the fact that i  made the biggest mistake of my life last ntye ryte memeber how i said i didnt want anything to do wit juan well i ended up going out wit him last nyte i dont no y i did but i did so everyone ( Read more... )

 ok someone please tell me something y is it when u brake up wit him someone they still call u and wanna be wit u dont they understand the whole part of brake up??? some1 please answer me that question .. i dunno owell  i am having a party at my house my moms friends are all here ... at my house .. we are having a birthday party for a friend of her ( Read more... )

i am so depressed i didnt  even go to skool today i couldnt take being around ppl today i feel like shyt i wanna scream it was so hard talkin to him last nyte it was the most horrible thing i ever done in my entire life i felt like shyt ... but u wanna no sumthin it was like he didnt fuckin care he showed no remorse that i am not wit him WTF is ( Read more... )

 Omg i dont fuckin beleive again it has happen me and juan are offically broken up and i feel like shyt seriously um.. like i mean  for realli its the real thing let me tell u um.. well where should i start well if u ahve read my past entrys u kinda get the hint ... well anywayz last ntye was the offical brake up cuz i couldnt take his shyt no more ( Read more... )

ok ok... well i guess ill all let u no yes me and juan are bac together again i swear i never no to much wit him .... so anywayz thingz arent as good as they have been but still  we iight i guess...

um.. i went to the doctors today i went to 2 different ones...

i didnt go to skool today cuz i had  doc appts....

i also no that um... on ( Read more... )