well, for being someone whos kinda hurt I sure do feel like a lousy person..Im still feeling angry but Im starting to feel sorry and I dont really think I should have to...I wasnt the one that made this happen and I know nothing can change that it did but it kinda just throws all of my don't trust anyone insticnts back into motion, I dont want to ( Read more... )

Im so confused right now..I dont know what to think, I cant get everything straigtened out in my head. I cant tell if Im more mad or hurt, I know it wasnt intentional, but it still hurts none the less. Im not mad at the fact..Im upset because it was hidden from me and that hurts more then you could possibly know. I dont want any friendships ( Read more... )

Well, not much goin on lately went back to school this week which kinda sux. Work has been hell Im so sore from it Ive barely been able to ride cuz I hurt so bad. Havent been able to hang out as much since schools back which I hate. I finally start to have a life outside the barn and school and now its back to that again..w/e I guess not very ( Read more... )

So the last few nights have been fun, Ive been hanging out w/ my friends a lot more often. Autumn was here it was like old times. Layna and I have crazy times together its so funny Im finally opening up and being myself even if Im around some new people. Last night was great, I miss being able to hang out w/ a group, I was just never really into ( Read more... )

I dont know how much more I can take of this..I feel like Im loosing everything almost everyone, things wont be the same I dont see how they can. I gained so much when I moved here in 8th grade..the things that happened b4 that kinda got swept away..then they start to come back to haunt me, things now start to change everything that was going good ( Read more... )

...lost

Ya know, I dont understand why Im so stressed out..Im taking a break from work, we finally have a vacation from school which I really needed. The only problem with not going to school is that Im not around people and when Im alone all I do is think of shit that goes on that makes me unhappy. I sit there by myself and think Im gonna be alone for ( Read more... )

I dont get it I was fine for the past like 3-4 months I was actually happy now all the sudden things are back to how they used to be..miserable. I feel dead to the world, like I dont even exist. Christmas is coming up..I guess Im excited but Im not really feelin it. I wish things could be better but I dont know how to get it there with all the ( Read more... )

ok well stress is wonderful. I have to much shit going on right now..work is hell Im sick of all the bull. Ive been there 3 years and they treat me like Im a fuckin slave Im supposed to do everything cuz our manager sux and cant do it. Ive got 4-5 horses to work which takes up tons of time which usually I dont mind cuz its what I love doing. Im ( Read more... )