you know that pity's got an ugly price tag.

[consacre]

i hate how i feel the need to be constantly validated.
i need to get the fuck over the fact that some people are bound to be better-looking than me.

it's terrible that i barely update, and then when i finally do, it's about how envious i am.

Comments

[sehren]

I think everyone has a natural, unique beauty that needs to be focused on, and brought out. Everyone really is beautiful in different ways.

I think what I want to tell you is that... I've noticed that when I'm jealous of people, I'll think things like: oh, that girl doesn't have any freckles, I'm so jealous... that's why I'm not beautiful. But there have been times when I've come across a girl who DOES have freckles, and I DO think she's beautiful. It's not that the freckles were a flaw... but that it was beautiful in it's own way. It isn't a barrier to beauty, and it's just another part of me that needs to be embraced and worked with.

I hope I don't sound too crazy! This may even be totally irrelevant. But I just want you to know that.... well, I know how you feel, and this is just something I got to thinking about. I find a lot of different people beautiful, for different reasons. I've come to believe that everyone has that potential, it only needs to be brought out and refined.

<3

[consacre]

thank you, jess. you always put things so eloquently, and i really appreciate it.

it just feels terrible when i have this overwhelming desire to change myself somehow, and then i begin to think that it wouldn't make a difference. that what i want to attain is actually hopeless. it's such a frustration.

but again, what you said meant a lot.<3

[sehren]

I found it so difficult to make all of that make sense, actually. I retyped it several times, heh. I do wish I could have said it better, somehow.

Either way -- I know exactly what you're talking about.. or at least I think I do, because it certainly sounds familiar. It's very frustrating to feel that way... I feel like that a lot, too.

I just want you to know that you're beautiful. There are a few pictures of you that I have saved on my computer, just because they're so pretty! And I was jealous. heh. Haha, I hope that doesn't freak you out or something... it might seem kinda weird. But my point...! Beautiful.

[anonymous]

deep.

if you really think about what makes people good-looking, you'll realize it's all just a cookie-cutter. "that person is hot, even though i'm not at all attracted to them." then think about who you do find attractive, and you'll realize the reason why you do, is because it's beyond the surface. they might have physical qualities that make them attractive, but there is something more that magnifies those qualities. seeing them with your own eyes is just a reminded of how beautiful they are underneath it all.

[zaraya]

hey girl! i miss your updates. i hope everything is going ok!