i have NO CLUE how the days and weeks and TIME keeps disappearing! before i know it, a whole year is over and done with and it feels like it was just beginning. so much has happened, and so much is still going on ( Read more... )

I REALIZE IT'S ALMOST BEEN A YEAR SINCE I'VE UPDATED.

i assumed it would have been deleted. & a lot has changed. well, i guess in my life too, but i was talking about the LJ. i don't really plan on constantly posting up things in here..

but i wanted to say HI. and.. IS ANYONE THERE?

i hate how i feel the need to be constantly validated.
i need to get the fuck over the fact that some people are bound to be better-looking than me.

it's terrible that i barely update, and then when i finally do, it's about how envious i am.

dear jesus. i finally have the internet back.

so. hello. how are you? i have a cat. i'll get pictures up eventually.
until then, i'll sit here and enjoy the rest of the smirnoff.
fksjfsa uhh anyway.

my apartment reflects my life: when things get messy, i tend to avoid fixing anything up.

my brain is eating garbage via the panasonic screen. shotgun-to-the-head 'entertainment.' mindless zombie doesn't come close. this is head cocked to the side - drooling on yourself - random twitching stupidity flashing before my eyes.

i've got to get out more. or something.

my 18th birthday is over and done with. i'm tired of thinking about the fact that on October 9th, i became an adult. i know it's just a number, but i'm already dealing with multiple responsibilities without a strong support system. charley is definitely a wonderful support, but that's just one pillar. he can't be the sole person keeping me from ( Read more... )

i'll feel attractive as long as i don't look in the mirror.

i can't escape anywhere anymore. sometimes i would rather be alone than be around people. or perhaps that scenerio only applies to certain individuals; i'm not sure. it is also possible that i'm secretly mean and selfish and don't want anyone in the house. or we could stem from that example and perhaps assume that i'm overly territorial ( Read more... )

01) On August 15th, i drove (with the aid of my brother) to California from Minnesota. We arrived the following day. I am officially moved out of MN, and into CA to.
02) I landed a job with a cat-vet clinic; i started on August 30th there. I got very lucky.
03) Still need to find an apartment with boyfriend. (currently residing with him and his ( Read more... )