ok guys..i'm not going to hurt myself. but i really feel like i'm stuck in a tremendously lonely place.

this is officially the worst moment i can remember in a long time. it's a good thing i'm too sick to walk to the kitchen in order to grab a knife to slit my wrists with. i really just want to sleep and never wake up. i'm SO sad.

my life has been a swirl of school, work, porneokee, high school drama, lunches, phone calls and dreaming about this fucking semester to be over with. my birthday is fast approaching and i'm not ready for it. another year with not a lot accomplished and being lonely. i don't think i want or ask for much but obviously i do ( Read more... )

i've been so busy i feel like i've dropped off the face of the earth into a neverending black hole of school work. all i ever do i work, go to school, and do homework. i'm so uninteresting. i don't even have enough energy to do anything fun. I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP!!!!

everyone has gotten or will be getting new hair-dos..and i'm so jealous. i've wanted mine done for so long but i never have enough money to go as drastic as i want. i need a change. this look i have now just isn't working for me. sucks that i work so hard and all my money goes to bills. boo ( Read more... )

so i'm very confused right now. but i'm confused in a good way i think. i'm officially crossing my fingers and wishing things work out for me. i need everyone to tell me to just take things a day at a time and for what they are worth ( Read more... )

ok, you know your weekend will be great when you are cracking up at porneoke on wednesday! i think i have found my new wednesday spot. i can't remember the last time i danced so outrageously, it was awesome. jess, you godfather, your crew makes me laugh. shane! you will dedicate a song to me in two weeks (and it better be a good one ( Read more... )

i love my new job. i get to dress up and spend all day telling girls if clothes look good on them!! plus half of my victoria's secret girls work for me there! how could i not love it ( Read more... )

i'm sitting in class as i type. listening to a completely adorable lady ramble in what sounds like mandarin at this point. it's so hard to concentrate my mind is all over the place. i spent 40 on thai food yesterday and got a little tipsy before even buying a 12 pack for caro and i ( Read more... )

after sleeping for an hour in a half i woke and took another amazing shower. i love showers. if i didn't get so pruney i would live in the shower. then i picked kris kristohperson up and we headed to orlando to shop!! our initiative to leave early and hit up outlet malls and the millenia ended up being our downfall. we were so tired we couldn't ( Read more... )