I thought it was over, and maybe by now it will be. But I had another nightmare. This one was layered. So much going on and all in so little time. But in this dream, someone broke into the apartment as I was in front of my laptop, typing away. At first the two girls didn't see me, until I called out to them ( Read more... )

Two nights prior I dreamed I had to put Jurnee to sleep. I was in her vet's office, they had administered the shot, and I held her. In my dream, she didn't die, because I woke up after she looked up at me, eyes half closed and before she took her last breath ( Read more... )

This day was supposed to be more than just an adventure on the train. As always, I was desperate to find something positive out of the day. I would be seeing Suzie (dontknow_myself) and her mother, whose birthday it was today. We had wonderful plans, and probably still will, but just a few minutes ago, I found out my boss Anna passed away ( Read more... )

On a huge Harry Potter kick. I completed well over 20 pages of my 15th scrapbook. Now I gotta decide on decorations and the like. It's all good, I didn't forget how much I enjoyed this, but I did put that hobby aside for everything concerning Facebook. bleh. This is fun, and it's keeping me happy. What's better than that???

Oh, life. There's much to look forward to. After such an awful month and the challenging feeling of having so much go wrong with the family, I am grateful to be peddling away from that. And very easily I can be drawn back, but for now, I want to stick with believing that things are bettering, or possibly just settling into this...numbness. Does ( Read more... )

oh no! not today! bad day must be made into a good day? what shall I do? Write about matthew gray gubler! his geek is love attitude is just too cute to resist! too bad he'd never notice me. Oh no, this isn't some downer, its all about him being too tall, and me being too short.

There are times when I am comforted by the thoughts of my friends. To the left of me right now, sits two sets of pictures; and they bring me comfort and a wide smile. A welcomed change to the past two weeks. I am off to have a good day at work. We'll see how well that turns out ( Read more... )

I must find a positive, I fucken must. I saw my dad today, and we had a wonderfully unhealthy breakfast together. Pancakes, italian sausage (for him), bacon and eggs. It was unfortunate he had a headache that made him sleep most of his visit, but I always enjoy seeing my Papi, despite his somewhat zealous ways. Who doesn't have something, right ( Read more... )

Things are no better, and visiting the situation yesterday didn't make it any easier to face. Her eyes are so lost, they no longer rationalize reality, there is only the one that she lives in. It's terrible, it saddens me more, and it pains me to realize there is no easy answer, there is only the difficult one. I wished to play no part in that, ( Read more... )

i have hope. blind hope? yeah, in many cases yes. But never, never, never has it been tested like it being tested like it is now. i am have to see the good in everything, and now, after what is going on, I am confused, hurt, and raw. I bear no physical markings, but I am emotionally bruised. my faith tested. what is going to happen next? even ( Read more... )