I have been extremely dissatisfied with life as of lately. Either it is the end of college, the man putting me down in the theatre department, or just feeling left out of the party scene at Willamette. I'm just tired of the same old crap every day, I'm angry at everything, and disinterested and feeling unable to relate to others. I feel like I've ( Read more... )

that's a lot to process all in one night.

i'll let you know if i do.

but, we do live in the adult world now. and we have to live with adult rules. even if we know they're wrong.

1. Are you a male or female ( Read more... )

another wonderful night, with people i love. never at the popular house, i wasn't invited out to copper-john's until 11:24 at night, when alyssa texted without saying, "hey, i'll be in town. text when available." no, already when i knew what i wanted from the night. and i got it, good times with friends, positive energy, fun but thoughtful ( Read more... )

i am livid. i am sick and tired of people complaining about rehearsals from the sorority, from the cast, from everyone. one, if anyone in the sorority even attempted professional theatre, something beyond high school, they would learn right away that it is more demanding then expected. "you should be here." "oh, i'm sorry you didn't hear, you weren ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot lately. it hasn't been the thinking i used to do, just the hyped up thinking and awareness. am i doing what i want to? is acting really for me? am i happy? am i lying to myself? why do i feel so apathetic towards everything? am i being inspired anymore? what am i doing ( Read more... )

sun party!

ball in the millstream.

badminton.

safeway.

meals by the millstream.

209c.

kill bill volume 1 and 2.

sassy.

avoiding walmart.

home. ahhh...

erik!

snowball fights!

dairy queen! the lights off!

fred myers!

top hat adventure!

chit chat.

ivan at tualatin.

i saw aaron tonight. he looked pathetic, the same. the only thing different was my reaction. it was a leap. i got nervous. i needed to express my nerves. i needed to jump up and strangle him. i needed to find an attractive male and straddle him passionately. i needed to do things that i've meant to for the longest time. i couldn't, though, not in ( Read more... )

speculation time ( Read more... )

wake up ( Read more... )