What is it about the future and the uncertainty surrounding it that makes my heart ache and my eyes automatically fill with tears?

This is from a restored draft from a few weeks ago, but it's time to put it up and out ( Read more... )

Today my boss called me and we chatted about this summer. He asked me some hypothetical questions. One of these questions was about what I will do if during the fourth session, which is for kids that either have AIDS or are HIV positive, one of them pulls me aside to talk. Instead of talking about camp or his favorite food, the boy asks me what ( Read more... )

You know what sucks? When all your friends go out to the bars three/four nights a week and can't talk about anything but the bar and how much fun they have. Or when they complain about how they would rather go to this bar than another. And when they put up away messages that say things like, "out with my favorites." And you try to tell yourself ( Read more... )

So for weeks I've been checking my horoscope, laughing at the fact that I haven't had anything worse than a three star day in months (maybe even years). But today, alas, I have a two star day! And the funny thing is that today is the best day I've had in awhile. SOOOO this leads me once again to say that horoscopes in my school paper are crap ( Read more... )

Re: My hair ( Read more... )

Yeah, figured it was time to give this piece a really quick update. And by quick, I of course mean that this will drag on longer than anyone wants it to. But it's my journal, so I can do whatever I want ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had this discussion about how I'm a pessimistic person... and I suddenly started to think about what made me into this bitter/cynical person that I am today. I understand it's necessary to make sure that only the best of the best rise to the top of society, but at the same time, nothing is worse than beating some one down. When I left ( Read more... )

Is it wrong to think about the past and wonder what could have been if you were older and wiser?

Is it wrong to miss some one that you really shouldn't?

Is it wrong to be unsure about every thing around you?

Because if it is, I'm screwed and I'm going to hell.

SIGH.

I wouldn't normally share this, but here it is because I think that it's something that should be shared ( Read more... )