you know, i realized that now with the new job, i have not been staying particularly up to date on the journal. which would suck i would think, because if i don't write my thought, feelings, happenings, how the hell am i expected to remember them later? so, i have fallen into some kindof sexual depression thing, where i always feel dirty/guilty ( Read more... )

okay, so i should have a new job by next week, i guess that'll be nice, i have two interviews, a follow up tomorrow and another on wednesday, so pay me! really, i am ready to go back to work, but i am going to have to wait, because a long lost friend of mine is coming to town on the 1st, and she would absolutely kill me if i was at work the whole ( Read more... )

i really don't feel like i am that lazy of a person, but evidence points to the contrary. apparently i have been without employment now for almost three months. that is rather scary, i don't know exactly what led up to this latency, but i am significantly ready to return to the workforce. for one thing, my bills just keep on coming, im still ( Read more... )

i am so extremely tired right now, and nonetheless i feel the need to write something, get it out of my head. it is all in there, of course, just spiraling around, driving me nuts right now, but that is okay ( Read more... )

here are some of my entries from myspace, i am pulling away because i think it is complete shit ( Read more... )

so maybe i don't really understand the human psyche at all. i have thought, at varying points in life, that i had at least the most mundane grasp of what makes people tick, or at least some concept of what makes me tick; clearly not. when all it takes to spark renewed interest in some vaguely unrequited love is to here her voice again, days hours ( Read more... )

so, i think i am probably getting over the fact that i completely surrendered my heart to *another* girl, and she handed it back in a condition other than the one it was given in. why, and i repeat this question out of necessity, why, do i continue to find girls who are not worthy of my time? am i drawn toward them like some clueless moth is ( Read more... )

i had a dream the other night and felt the pain that was yours ( Read more... )

i clearly need to restructure my days. what i should be doing right now is going to the gym to carve off the extra poundage acquired by my taste in not-too-light beers and subway italian bmts. instead im sitting here typing on my computer, which im pretty sure burns nothing in the way of calories, or at least not more than any other activity ( Read more... )

saw potential in word of mouth marketing for new hip-hop influenced/branded product lines soon to roll out. interesting, soon we may all be trading in red bull for pimp juice (not that it sounds particularly tasty), or possibly ice t's rollout of same idea different name (vh1 says it tastes better, ill wait on that decision until i can try it for ( Read more... )