Comments | cool_m2000: Bi-Polar

cool_m2000

Bi-Polar

Jan 24, 2005 14:46

I think I'm going to diagnose myself with bi-polar disorder. I read my last entry and said my life is not comparable. And I meant that in the sense that the people's minds who I encounter are as bright as the most resilient gold you've ever seen. And my life is incomparable because it is not that good. On a weight system, it'd be a negative number ( Read more... )

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solstice04 January 25 2005, 01:32:14 UTC

It has been said by many doctors and psychiatrists that they should never try and diagnose themselves. You are worth more. I wonder how many times i have to say that before you learn it through repetition? We should talk more.

cool_m2000 January 25 2005, 02:31:41 UTC

we should... after i learn more about how are minds think and after i plunge into my ever-widening abyss of ambivalence and ambiguity. lol... ;) have a great day tomorrow.

alaronlaurn January 25 2005, 06:58:12 UTC

You said you used to be a social chameleon(unsure as to the exact meaning of this term but I'm assuming you mean you changed your expressed traits depending on who you were around), perhaps to some extent you still are. Or maybe you just get more depressed when you sit down to write out your thoughts, but when you're with friends your mood lightens.

That's just being human, not manic depressive.

Anna Karenina cool_m2000 January 26 2005, 01:07:16 UTC

The instant I say "social chameleon", I think back to its origins and where I heard it from: my AP English Literature teacher. We were reading Anna Karenina at the time and Steva Oblonsky would always be an ambiguous and ambivalent character. He would always go with the crowd and try to be in good humores with people. So, metaphorically, he is a social chameleon, changing along with the new fashions, trends, socially acceptable paraphernilia, etc. And I guess I was never EXACTLY like what I just aforementioned, but I was close in that I was never a rule-breaker, or rarely a rule-breaker. I would always be polite and in good standing with my peers and authoritarians. Except for the most extreme circumstances (I mean, I did steal 200 dollars from my parents and grandma in second grade, and in fourth I cheated on a girl's test and got caught). And you're totally right. To a great extent, it is in fact due to society that I'm NOT being like them. It brings up that paradox where in order to know white, you have to know what black is. In ( ... )

hmwrdlookngangl January 25 2005, 09:07:57 UTC

whoa... feel better

cool_m2000 January 26 2005, 00:45:20 UTC

Thanks.