I have no doubt that I'll be happy with him. And by happy I mean have a good life, be able to raise kids, have a steady paycheck and lifestyle, and have a supportive husband. But will I truly be happy? Be able to wake up every day and know I made the right choice in the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with? Be so completely overjoyed ( Read more... )

Am I lost or just less found?

I am too dead to deal with life. I am too weak, too unstable. My heart is broken too much to work with my head anymore. Perhaps my heart will become too broken to continue beating. Perhaps it is already. When will the beating of this world stop, then ( Read more... )

I hate how you make me feel worthless. I hate how you make me feel like everything about me is wrong. I hate how you make me feel like I need to change everything about me to measure up to your standards. I hate how your standards are the way, the only way.  I hate how you make me feel like my kind of love is illegitimate and unrighteous. I hate ( Read more... )

And if you were with me tonight / I'd sing to you just one more time / A song for a heart so big / God wouldn't let it live.

Jeff, father, friend. I miss you already. I will always love you and look up to you. Thank you for believing in me and caring for me. See you later.

May angels lead you in. And may you join them. <3

 My Allison, another year does fade ( Read more... )

beautiful?

"You know, when I think about people breaking up, I always think about the person getting broken up with. Like, I always feel bad for my friends who got dumped and think the other person is a jerk. I never think about the person doing the breaking up. It's hard breaking hearts." -Tamale ( Read more... )

For Miss Mary by Allison M. Sherer

You sit there with half open
more than half the day eyes
swiping by today and tomorrow
You smile as I buy
chocolate chip banana bread, craving
the richness in my hand.

Why is it that I can
lick the sticky sweetness
off my fingers and you are confined
to only tasting the
lingering overbearance of
Chanel Number 5?

Can't you ( Read more... )

that i am so completely undesirable?