I have to make those calls tomorrow. I have to stop putting it off. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't.

Sigh.
Self destruction feels so good. It eases so much pain. BUt at the same time it just makes an even bigger mess.

I wanted lyrics to go here but I couldn't find any that would fit.

So I am going to make a list of all the things I have to say ( Read more... )

My money should be in tomorrow. I really hope so. I'm getting back $1389. Which seems like a lot but I still have to buy books and pay for Febuary's rent. Then I have to pay off my phone bill among other things. MyUCF says I have paid everything, Yay!

I am so tired and still sick.

Gosh! I just want to scream sometimes.

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you

If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
Giving up on love
On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love ( Read more... )

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Guess what!?!? I just realized that we are going to see Blue October next weekend!!! Like in a week!!! And we are going to see them in Jacksonville ( Read more... )

So I decided that I need a change. Something, but not just anything. Something to take my mind off everything, something that makes me happy. Something that I can take comfort in but at the same time not become addicted to. It needs to be somewhere between a medium to a high change. The thing though is that I don't know exactly what it should be ( Read more... )

( My head feels like it is going to swell up of sinus cancer or something )

I haven't made a "hey this is what has happened" post in a long time ( Read more... )

( Blue October - amnesia )