Hey, look what I found. 

The whole post, or most of it, is in the subject.

I've been wretchedly busy working six days a week and not getting paid nearly enough to compensate for it.  That said, I've been neglecting phone messages, emails, friend-lists on myspace and livejournal, and much of the internet in general.

Sorry for that.

Hope everything is well with everyone.

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So...
There are 600-1 odds that the tomb of Jesus, as he was depicted in the New Testament, was found. That gives us 600-1 odds that the old Roman-Christian doctrine has several substancial falsehoods at its core while all of the heretical sects of Christianity--the gnostics, the "jewish-christians" etc--were shown to be nearer the truth, at least ( Read more... )

Love is the insidious lie that one is worthy of attention.  Animals, being wiser and more instinctively aware of the world into which they are born, possess little need for such false concepts of love,  and if they are capable of affection it is not out of any such maintained lie.  No, they provide affection because they have come to fall prey to ( Read more... )

Tonight after falling asleep on the couch while taking a break from the mind-numbing drudgery of reading medical reports I woke up to find a documentary about Hunter S. Thompson starting.  For a moment, as I watched the intro involve a great deal of nonsense involving the ridiculatard we call Gary Busey, I thought to myself: "Ah, this is going to ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamt of nothing unusual.  It was simply a typical day.   I woke up from the dream pissed off, and I'm already in a bad mood.

ugh.

Josh, you outrageous retard.   You let yourself think nice things could happen.

A new year coming and I am nearly twenty four.  What have I learned?  I am expendable to the world around me in all ways possible.  So are you.  Good things do not happen to good people; they are the product of random chance and little else.  If everything happens for a reason, then your life might well be for somebody else; the world does not ( Read more... )

So I got hurt and couldn't work.  I move back in with my mother, try to figure out how to go to school, send out some applications.   Nothing pans out.  A year goes by, funds deplete.  Nobody hires me.  I don't even get an interview.   I work a few odd jobs here and there.  Yard work, babysitting... random shit for an aunt, my grandparents, and ( Read more... )

So, how many of you feel like you're being torn apart? Mashed together ( Read more... )