The last few days of work have been more than trying. I think really just being alone all the time with more than I can handle is taking its toll on my sanity. I have to do the pack down list, I have to clean tints, I have to stock and face everything on my shelves, I have to help customers in the aisle, I have to tint paint and mix it and I have ( Read more... )

Today was just one of those days where I just wanted to scream or cry... it was just crazy. It was me and a girl in training alone at the paint desk and it was busy like it would normally be on a Saturday. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I didn't sleep well. I'm tired, I'm cranky, my body aches... ugh. I tried some relaxation stuff ( Read more... )

Your Brain's Pattern
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Ya know what I just realized? I haven't been updating much... since... oh say... February. I have NOOOOOOOOOOO idea why that might be. Oh, wait, yes I do... its because I've been working full time at Home Depot and when I come home I no longer think about - oh that would make a good blog entry... I used to think about things that would make for ( Read more... )

I figured it was about time to write an update where I wasn't freaking out about something. Yes I am exhausted, yes, I am fed up with a few things about work and church isn't what I would hope it to be... but I'm in a heck of a lot better place emotionally than I was in February. I have something to do - to keep myself occupied and I am earning a ( Read more... )

Where has my faith gone and why do I cringe at the thought of trying to bring it back? Where has my faith gone and why did it leave? I just don't understand. Most days I'm so busy with everything else that I just dont think about it; I dont care. Today is one of those days where I've had some time to sit and think... not to mention SVU made me ( Read more... )

Well, I've been working at Home Depot now for a month. I'm earning nearly 3 dollars more than I was earning at Sears... probably doing 3 times the work as well (and thats before everyone left me ALONE at the paint desk, on a saturday, during a paint sale). Since I've been at Home Depot, four paint associates have left *oh yeah I'm working in the ( Read more... )

I guess I've been having an ok week (month really) but there's nothing all that spectactular to comment about. I guess the only thing I feel like writing about right now is the fact that my cousin Kelly's wedding is today in Westbrook. My parents, grandmother, aunt and uncle all just left for the wedding and I wasn't invited. I helped my dad ( Read more... )

Why is it that birthdays seem to be such a horrible let down? Why do I always build myself up for disappointment? Why do I get excited... its pointless. I always just end up frustrated and disappointed by the fact that I don't get what Id like to have, I don't get the attention I'd like and no one offers to do anything with/for me unless I ( Read more... )

I feel like im just waiting for the other shoe to drop... its like my body is anticipating something that will make me very upset. I know why but I dont... like I know what has made me feel like something bad will happen but I don't think its likely that the something bad WILL happen but I cant seem to assure myself of that. God I hate that ( Read more... )