pretty wrong about last week. good thing and what a relief. i had looked through jeffrey's phone and found some recent-ish text messages between him and claire and amber. two old female friends that both had things for him. claire lied about a bunch of shit to get his attention and amber got married and then said she still loved him and tried to ( Read more... )

when i met him ( Read more... )

i want to believe that the reason i haven't gotten anything i want lately is because people are racist and don't like me. buuuuut i'm pretty sure i suck at everything. no part in any of the fall productions in the music department. no part in The Fantasticks. not even in University Choir. and they're going to Carnegie Hall this year. i'm most ( Read more... )

maybe i just make everything a bigger deal than it really is

at least he said he loved me 

how do you get over someone you thought you stopped loving?
maybe it's just me being nostalgic.

i'm not sure what i want anymore.

the Lubbock Moonlight Musical Theatre is holding auditions for the summer shows this Friday. i think i'm auditioning. if i make it, i'll stay in Lubbock for the summer with joseph. i hope when that if i make it, i make the ( Read more... )

i think something's wrong with me

he hurts my feelings. he hates my friends. we fight so much. and yet, i don't think i could make it here without him.

i can't stop thinking of stephen. i know that he'll never want me the way i think i need him, but that fact doesn't stop the feelings that rush me as soon as i get a minute to sit back and think.

i ( Read more... )

i woke up, got dressed, brushed my teeth, went to the elevator and looked outside the window. i saw a white parking lot. ice covered everything. it was cold and slippery and the wind was blowing tiny, white chunks of ice into my bare face. i was not very happy. first because it was morning, second because i realized that joseph had to drive home in ( Read more... )

she's not pregnant. he's not married ( Read more... )

it's been a while ( Read more... )

sleep my love, for sleep is kind
sleep is kind when sleep is young
sleep for me, sleep for me...

that be the song where i go down to bass land.

and boy is it fun.

got back from Lubbock about 30min ago. tired as fuck. the audition went really well. like...wow.

but the drive was not fun. at all. 6hrs on the road to the freaking flat as hell plains. i saw:

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