i'm so overhwelmed and scared. but honestly, this is what it's gotta take in order to make due with what i got, right? there are so many coulda, wouldas, shoudlas, but when it all comes down to it, this is what it is right now ( Read more... )

 a leader is someone who sees the potential strengths in another person's quality, and is able to effectively put that strength into whole hearted use. i think for too long, .. maybe it has to do with the whole insecurity complex, that i've been putting other people down. criticizing them for things that they can't do right, or calling them dumb ( Read more... )

i'm just going to let the words flow out of my fingertips now... no point in trying to analyze the way that i am right now.. i think the only way to be completely free is to truly allow my mind to be free, and to let nature take its course ( Read more... )

 Honestly,.... I think my dissatisfaction with life is truly stemming from the fact that for a long time now, I've been trying to stunt the way that I truly am. I've been trying to make too many changes to myself, I'm trying to "improve" on too many "weak areas," and I'm not allowing myself to live. By focusing too much on my mistakes and ( Read more... )

I am so completely and utterly dissatsified wiht my life right now.. I know so many changes need to be made, but really... what changes will ultimately make me happy anyways? What will my life consist of in order to make me satisfied? What ways would I be for me to be completely happy with myself? What goals do I have to attain, and what persona do ( Read more... )

You know, I have this penetrating fear of feeling like I can't do things. Like I don't have the time, I don't have the energy, I don't have the resources, I don't have the talent----but honestly, that fear comes from no one else but me. I am the only person who can really tell myself that I can't do something. No one else can. I won't let anyone ( Read more... )

I need to invest a lot less time in certain friends. It's pretty fucked up; but I guess it's just a detriment to myself to continue being friends with people who: time and time again, fuck me over. And time and time again, prove to be play such heinous parts in my life: in a negative aspect and not a positive. One such person is Albert, and this is ( Read more... )

For as long as I can remember, I think I've had a problem with my temper. Ok, well it doesn't go that deep.... but what I'm saying is that I have a pretty big temper problem that I can't really stress enough... i've had it with my friends, my family, my road rage, my relationships.... fuck

 i never want to become jaded.

yes, a lesson that i think i learned from watching a bit of Rock Of Love.
See-- reality television isn't ALWAYS so useless.

 i have a lot to be thankful for. i need to continue to remind myself every single day that it is this way.. this weekend after my retreat in san diego we were driving back on the freeway, and there was a little traffic, and while we were passing by where the accident was, we saw this man laying, cold, white on the gorund with his hands placed ( Read more... )