I want to randomly up and go ( Read more... )

So im the lead singer of a band.. just vocals and a little bit of keys/piano.. Lookalive is getting sicker.. Now its me, kris, lucas,josh, and zach.. We might go to just a trio.. but either way im happy for once.. It's weird.. Im chillin at my friends apartment.. and now that all my friends are older and mature (not in high school mind sets) things ( Read more... )

so i have been working on about 30 songs my band is playing cinco de mayo.. sounding good.. it's weird I can sing okay now ( Read more... )

no one gets to see 99% of what i put in here.

no one even knows whats going on anymore.

i feel fake.

i have trust issues. i have depression issues. and i feel like everyone is just out to hurt me.. i only feel like this cause i have let the wrong people close to me.. now i dont know whats right.. and i seem to push everyone away.. why am i so

i seriously dont know what is wrong with me ( Read more... )

this started as a blog on myspace and turned into a song?

im no longer growing up im getting olderi wasn't where i wanted to be in life.. i was hiding behind false happiness induced by an injection of desperately needed attention.. things happened for a reason.. i have had time alone to find out who and what i really am.. as i sat in parking lots ( Read more... )

Things are finally going sweet.. Other than getting robbed.. but I get over things now.. I am so glad I work 40+ hours a week.. More like 50+.. This was the start of my 3rd week back at Firehouse.. Things are different.. Im more mature and a better worker.. I haven't even been in the "work force" for a year yet.. It was a year ago at the end of ( Read more... )

finally things seem to be going okay.

I got a new job. I might make manager soon.

I am getting my life more on track now.

I should make entrys not private? I dunno.. should do more than rant on this thing.

im making my new years list

no more emoness (cutting/crying/being sad/being down/being negative)
no more/limited drugs and alcohol (special occasions)
be wise with money, but fun with my family LA ( www.myspace.com/lookalive904 ( Read more... )

Or how it is when you realize all your feelings and thoughts meant nothing and were fake ( Read more... )