i'm not in a good place lately. i don't sleep, i don't eat, and i feel like i'm holding back tears when i'm just sitting in class or a meeting or when i'm just sitting, which i've been doing a lot lately ( Read more... )

( it's the new year, you knew there'd be surveys )

so i've been back in new york for a few weeks now ( Read more... )

not that you'll ever read this, but...

i just looked through a bunch of your pictures on facebook.
i thought i might get jealous at some of them,
but you know what?
i didn't.
not even a little.
it just made me a little sad
because we used to be friends...

in all honesty, i don't know how much more of this austin college drama i can take. t-minus four days until i'm back in my northern home with proper pizza and bagels and where my mommy makes me tea and i don't have to be in charge of everything and i don't have everyone relying on me for 24/7 emotional support. i would love a night's sleep to go ( Read more... )

( things i will never say )

so very much has happened since that last entry ( Read more... )

i'm really sick of people saying, "you're young, you have time"

because i like to have a plan
and how can i be so certain i have time?
especially when people around me keep dying...

damnit.

rest in peace, blake trammel. you were a mess, but a really good guy.
i'm going to miss you.
a lot of us are going to miss you.

so i'm at school ( Read more... )