I miss you. I miss your smile. Your kiss, your touch. You are so far away and I can't stand it. I don't know what to do. You are so far away.. Fucking kill me now for the memories I feel from you. Kill me. I love you.

i have done a 180 on my life. you don't understand ( Read more... )

i don't feel like writing. i just feel like saying fuck you.

I've been updating less frequently. I suppose I find the bad things in life easier to talk about? No, not really. I think I've just been focused on keeping busy. Avoiding certain issues. Issues that are still very much there, but that I would rather not think about ( Read more... )

since i updated. i guess mainly i try to avoid it because i get all emo when i write in this thing. for tonight i am really going to just write a short simple thing to get somewhat back on track. i'll save the emo for later ( Read more... )

Fuck everyone.

I don't like this. I fucking hate it. I'm hurt. I'm disgusted. I want to erase. Happiness is apparently too much to ask. It comes at high prices. I wish I was retarded or had down syndrome so I could be happy all the time. Because I wouldn't know half of what was ever going on.

**UPDATE** doo dee doo de doo ( Read more... )

Not much going on today. Figured I'd update real quick, something other than a big long serious depressing entry. I can't help my mind is always completely full of things, and it's like there is a little mousy in my head always running on one of those damn wheels. Sometimes I just want that thing to get tired and go to sleep for a little bit ( Read more... )

I am so envious/jealous of people with their husband/wives, and children.. How this has happened I guess I don't really know. But there has been a change in me. I would say I love it, but since I want that family life now, and I do not have it nor will have it anytime soon, it just makes me sad.