I really hate the world right now. I'm probably just in a bad mood but whatever, I just hate school and everything else in the world, including myself right now. I'm going through a major "I'm fat" period, and I know it'll go away in a week or so, I just have them sometimes but I hate them. I feel extremely discouraged about my life right now, ( Read more... )

So I haven't spoken to stephen in over a month and before that night we hadn't spoken for a few weeks, I have to say I actually kinda miss him. Well, not so much him as the guy he occasionally is, you know once everycouple of months. Oh well. By the way don't ever take your car to haddock of wakefeild collision center. erg it was beyond bad ( Read more... )

I've known him a week, it's been fun so far, today I got the "I just wanted to know how your day was" call so things must be going well.

he said he wants to give it a real shot, I want to believe him more than anything, but prior experiences make me worried. I wish I could fast-forward just so I could see what is going to happen, I wouldn't mind coming back and waiting if I knew what I was waiting for, but now it's like walking on egg shells

sometimes I want so badly to believe but mostly I just wonder if I'm being foolish

Lately the strangest little things have made me crumble into a sobbing wreck. The weirdest things have been making me think about my dad. I always thought it would get easier as time went on, but lately it's been a lot harder. Even though he was gone I always knew what he would have thought of what I was doing. We never discussed college, I don't ( Read more... )

This summer should be fun. Mostly I'm looking forward to hanging out at Toreros, there's something wrong with me. lol I spend WAY to much time there. Eh, I can't wait to go to miami. I ordered some cute clothes for the summer and they should come right before I leave. So far I've finished 3 classes 2 A's and a B. Yay for me. So this entry was ( Read more... )

I've been unexplainably happy lately. Stupidly so, trees make me smile, the stupid jokes on tv shows make me smile. Maybe it's just because it's spring and I'm almost done with this semester. Maybe it's the calm before the storm. Oh well it's not really worth worrying about. The important thing is that in two weeks I'll be packing for 4 days in ( Read more... )

I applied at Ranoca, I didn't get the job. Honestly I kind of think it's funny. The fact is I was much more qualified than most of the people applying, but the shit with Stephen came up of course since the people doing the interview had been there. It's all good though in the end it caused me to look for a second job and I kind of accidentally got ( Read more... )

So I was sitting here last night chatting on-line when suddenly and out of the blue after months of not speaking Stephen IMs me...I don't know what to do with it. Perhaps outside input will help. It just caught me completely off guard ( Read more... )