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I woke up
A voice from 2004
"Just a few days ago I was almost wishng that I was stuck at this point in my life forever so I wouldn't have to face the future. Now I hope I wake up tomorrow in a decent house, 40 years old with a cute wife and a few kids. One week at a time I suppose."
Well....
I woke up about 15 hours ago, 40 years old in a very nice house ( Read more... ) -
Morbidly curious time capsule.
Yes, most of this shit is pretty whiny.....like me. But I'd like to think that I am maturing, slowly but surely. And, this thing does serve as an interesting time capsule....one that goes into my psyche. It shows how I was when I was just finishing up college. Just about to start my life, for real anyway. My last post in 2014 found me married ( Read more... ) -
Wow
What a whiny little bitch I was.....no wonder I couldn't get laid! To anybody that ever read this shit: I profoundly and profusely apologize. Especially if you were/are female. Makes for an interesting look back at who and how I was a few years ago though. That's the only thing that keeps me from deleting this bucket of whine! -
Anxiety creeping up again
Maybe I need to bitch and moan in this thing after all. Anxiety went and messed with my heart a little and put me in the hospital again, but this time it was less than one day. I've since discovered through out this week that it is really mostly me that does this to me....maybe even all me. I need to not worry about anything. About my job, fear ( Read more... ) -
I can't believe I did it
I can't believe I just did what I did. I feel so cheap. A little dirty too. But I won't say I hated it, or didn't enjoy a few parts. It was the most action I've gotten since, well, ahyways and prolly the most action I'll see in a while. They sure felt good, even if I was paying for them, or really, my friends were paying for them. Yikes, but ( Read more... ) -
I bought me a lamp, my lamp pleased me...
A lamp caught my eye today. I didn't even really need another lamp, or at least not until I thought about it some. There is a dark corner in my room so I guess I needed one after all. This first lamp was something. Very pretty, not too feminine or ugly, but she was missing one of her wings. I looked around for it among the shelves but couldn't ( Read more... ) -
What I want.
Oh you ladies. You bring such confusion and pain and heartbreak and sick feelings and anticipation and disappointment to me. Yet I still find myself looking stupid grasping my heart in pain as I long for one of you. The One. What does that say about me? -
Twists, turns, drops, a horrible day, a surreal day...
Yip it sure was a strange week. Monday (which contained sexual frustration of various types, the Spurs going down to 3-1, and various other disappointments) looked like it would end with me going to bed incredibly depressed, but then I was saved from a call from hot shapely pixie of a friend that kept the day from ending on a complete bad note. ( Read more... ) -
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I feel like shit. I feel like I'm being dicked around and I feel like certain people mean more to me than I mean to them. Feel tired. Feel horny (and not muscially). Feel lonely. Feel like a fool for trying something I knew would end in failure and frustration. Like I said, I feel like shit. -
Ignorance is strength
I am on an island surrounded by ignorance. That's what it is. I'm talking about my job over at that little school. There's talent there, tons of it, but almost as much attitude and, you guessed it, IGNORANCE! Tons of it! And it's the worse kind. They suck but they think they actually know shit. They don't know that they don't know! And the ( Read more... )