Haven't updated this crap in awhile. lets see... well i will be going to PCC in fall for school, figure i'd go looking for a job again.
Still feel as ornery as last I posted.
Summer had some good points, some dull points as well.
Still unmotivated and pessimistic.
so... About the same as always.

So as I told people that asked, I was taking a break last semester from school. This allowed me to do some much needed things in the area of personal health, but besides doing cabaret I've been pretty bored. I also feel that there is a lot of resentment from some of my friends, especially ones from school, about not being at school and not working ( Read more... )

I'm about ready to sacrifice a dozen goats to Hypnos so i can get a decent nights sleep. I wake up every 2 hours and i never feel rested, it's been wearing on me for months, but it is only getting worse. Saw some doctors, did a sleep study, it's not sleep apnea, but i never enter REM sleep. I figured time off from school would help me sleep, ( Read more... )

It's sad that i sit at the update page typing five different posts and erasing them because I'm afraid of the way people will view my attempts at describing how i feel and the like.

Ok so i thought of a few over the past couple weeks ( Read more... )

I'm not avoiding you, I'm just not putting in any effort to see you.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before ( Read more... )

All anyone one ever seems to say is move forward. "Do what you need to move forward" they say. everytime they say it they never satisfy the most basic human question, why? Why do we move forward? To get a piece of paper, get a job, work until you die or worse retirement when you are too old and frial to do the things you wanted ( Read more... )

The past two weekends I've managed to not hangout with two groups of friends for no reason. 2 weeks ago i didn't go to the beach with some of my college friends, probably would have been fun, but didn't go because I needed to do homework, which i didn't end up doing anyway and did the pseudo space out thing that I do alot, ended up doing about 3 ( Read more... )

Is confused why his LJ friends page is only showing 5 entries and can't go to earlier friend posts.