{.019 - voice post}

[corrupted_steel]

[Private :: unintentionally unscreened because he's too upset]
I don't get it.

He...he said that...there's no such thing as equivalent exchange. How could that be? I've existed with that principle as my guide and salvation and hope and it's, it's false? I don't...I don't - I don't understand!

Love is stupid.

Love is stupid and painful and fucking scary

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[oculus_blade]

Yeah, I'm sleeping in trees for the time being, like I said before. And...you alright? Dang complicated humans, causing so much pain for themselves...

[[Strikes are...I dunno...thoughts? D:]]

[screened to Ren :: Unhackable]

[corrupted_steel]

I'm not.

I'm useless.

Sorry.

[screened to Ed :: Unhackable]

[oculus_blade]

No need to apologize! Why do you think you're useless? You struck me as quite the contrary when I first met you. A bit...unique, but useless? Nah!~ Hey, you offered your room and I thought that was really helpful! No matter how delayed I am to actually stepping foot inside the room, you still offered it.

About your struggles...have you tried talking to whomever you like? I'm sorry if that sounded dumb. It sounds idiotic even to me. I'm not one to talk about my feelings either, but I think in your case, it would be better if you confirmed things so that you wouldn't have to live with so many doubts. Lessen the load.

Never wish you were dead. Life is a gift some are not as fortunate to have.

[screened to Ren :: Unhackable]

[corrupted_steel]

I'm useless because I just am. All I do is hurt everyone around me.

Oh, [laughs, bit too mad-sounding] I did talk to him. We fought. He broke...he...he broke the one thing I believed in. But I still...I don't know whether to bash his face in or cling to him or...shit, I'm sounding sappy again.

That wasn't what I meant. I'm already dead. I can't die again, so I'm just wishing that someday someone would...would give me that.

[whoneeds_milk]

I don't trust you. You gonna prove my distrust wrong? I doubt it.

[corrupted_steel]

Y'know, your hostility will get you nowhere. It's not like you were the one Pride - I was threatening, was it?

[whoneeds_milk]

You threaten Al, you threaten me.

And don't think I didn't hear about you and Envy threatening Winry; that did nothing to improve my opinion of you.

[corrupted_steel]

...okay. Fine.

Winry - she was like, telling Envy that she was his girlfriend. It made for a lot of confusion, so you can't blame me for it.

[iamusagi]

Ed-san?

[corrupted_steel]

Miss Usagi? You're all right now?

[Screened//Unhackable]

[iamusagi]

I am, but....I see that you aren't....

Your entry....

[Screened//Unhackable]

[corrupted_steel]

What about it?

...shit, did I fail to screen something again?

[Screened to Ed - Unhackable]

[colossalmistake]

Do not wish for death- death only hurts people. Death leaves people behind. Even if a person claims not to care... even if arguments separate people... death does not solve that. Death causes sorrow.

As for love... I can say nothing but agree with you on the account that it is frightening and painful.

[Screened to Wander - Unhackable]

[corrupted_steel]

You would if you were in my place. I died once and had no wish to be brought back, but I was and now I can't fucking die. Don't talk about things you don't understand.

...sometimes I don't think it's worth it. Love, I mean.

[Screened to Ed - Unhackable]

[colossalmistake]

It seems that I am in the exact opposite position that you were in. Someone died and I am trying to bring them back to life.

I would agree with you again. I need not love from someone only to have it betrayed.

[Screened to Wander - Unhackable :: 1/2]

[corrupted_steel]

You -

[sins_rebellion]

Oh, did the truth about equivalent exchange upset you? How unfortunate. Too bad that the silly little rules of your science don't apply to anything else.

You're the only one making it about losing anything, or choosing anyone.

What, you want to disappear again? It's annoying as fuck that the two of you keep trying to do that.

[corrupted_steel]

...would you just stop it?

I can't help but be paranoid, Envy.

Well maybe we - I - shouldnt've be brought back in first damn place. Wouldn't you be happy then? No more batshit younger sin trying to piss you off...

[sins_rebellion]

Or what, you'll stick me into another wall?

You shouldn't be, I'm not going to be choosing anyone over anyone.

Hell, probably none of us should have been brought back. But we were.

Are you an idiot? Who'd want that? I like having you around.

[corrupted_steel]

Transmute you to a bed, probably. More comfortable because by then I'll make sure you can't get out.

The hell you have so many lovers then.

I am an idiot, I admit that. It's because of the stupid price of that stupid wish, I'm worrying about that.