Seven is supposed to be a good number. It's the divine number. So after the seventh failure, maybe things will get better, right? Maybe now I can really start to hope that maybe the next one will want me and they won't leave me feeling like this. I'm okay when I don't think. I'm okay when I can keep from feeling. I'm okay, as long as I forget. But ( Read more... )

Which brings me back to the Lj for the first time in over 6 months. I'm freaking out right now because I zeroed out our bathroom scale (my mom set it high on accident apparently) and I have lost 10 pounds in the past WEEK. I'm really scared. I don't have enough weight on my body to be able to lose any at all and stay healthy so the fact that I have ( Read more... )

The Wilting Rose

This crimson rose, how fast it wilts,
its blood red petals fading.
How color dulls, leaves dry out,
How fast love is abating.

This rose was once so golden,
Sweet and rich and pure.
Its sweet scent floated on dream spun breezes,
When affection was assured.

It paled then in moonlight,
But ever did it grow;
This white rose opened wide my heart,
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I love this song. And it's stuck in my head. Just thought I'd share ( Read more... )

*Aidan grumbles. Danny grumbles. Everyone bloddy well grumbles. All grumbling directed at a certain SCHEMING QUEEN OF THE EVERYTHING ( Read more... )

I know it's been a while since I've posted; I've been having fun with Myspace and such, and admitedly with my parents having been gone for two weeks I haven't seen a need to update it. We had to put our dog Max down in about that time; it was very sudden. He had lymphoma and it essentially ate him alive, and it would have been cruel to try to ( Read more... )

Okay so Aidan is a conformist- he got a myspace. Check it out at myspace.com/peering_into_eternity.

The more I think about it lately, the less I feel like i'll ever really give myself the chance to live. I look at some of the people around me and it's like "i bet they're who they want to be, or at least they're on the right track." I just think I'm screwed up. I'm not necessarily having a crisis in faith right now. It's not even what I'd call ( Read more... )

My biggest news *for the moment as i have to go to bed* is that on my way home tonight i went by Wild Bill's and got an estimate on my tatto: about $220 give or take for the size i want, location, and inking. I thought it would be so much more!!! I'm all excited now, i know how much i need to save and can even set up a plan to do so!! WOO HOO ( Read more... )

Believe me, there is a difference between sleeping and resting. I can sleep for 12 hours or more, but i can't get any rest out of it. I wake up, if anything, MORE tired than before I went to sleep in the first place. ESPECIALLY this week ( Read more... )