The mistakes I make are seemingly endless.

But, despite, I continue to tell him I love him.

Every opportunity I recieve.

Because sometimes it is the only truth I have left in my life.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I sold my brain for a cloud.

Preferably a cumulus one.


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Shit hit the fan.

And my life became a void.

Everyone agrees that it was only karma biting me in the ass.

Well then, okay.

In any case, things are settling down again.

Fortunately for my well being.

School is fine.

Alec is my only friend anymore.

My life is habitual and plain.

I yearn for something spontaneous and vibrant.

Which is why I'm moving.

This Summer ( Read more... )

It's a curiosity that transpires into something so hollow the depths cannot be found. When you finally find a place where you sense certainty, suddenly you are swept off your feet by the endless emotions which weigh you down. Instead of being controlled by the soul you follow the mind and it's logical, rational self.  Doesn't the persistence of the ( Read more... )

Obnoxiously loud music with repetitious lyrics.
Articulate conversations.
Sparkly dresses and neon tights.
Long cascading hair.
And chocolate.
Maroon rugs and dancing feet.

I'm me again! I'm producing constant signs of having finally found the true me obscured by this girl who is forced into normality and emotionlessness. I've finally found my way back ( Read more... )

I've spent the past three days entirely with Stephanie, Alec and ,Allie.

From the moment I exited the plane from Alaska, up until late into the evening of a rainy Monday, these have been my main companions.

They are beautiful human beings who I praise for accepting and even loving me.

It's a feeling which I am still somewhat unable to completely ( Read more... )

Last night was ELOB's first dance of the new school year.

And you better believe, ELOB dances ain't no cup of tea. We the real thing.

Even though a nice cup of tea sounds quite enjoyable right now.

So, last night was both aweful and awesome. It took some time to transistion between the two. Near the beginning the dance was slow and I was having ( Read more... )

Tonight I experienced a sort of happiness like never before.

I was self confident beyond belief and felt so good in my own skin. I felt gorgeous for once; almost as if I were glowing with this intense beauty. And people noticed. For once, they noticed. I was no longer the shadow hidden by the shade...I was the illumination of light on a cloudy day ( Read more... )

Alright then, I am totally stealing Dylan's idea here. It's too good to pass up and of course mostly everyone wants to know what other people think of them, right? People in general feel too cruel telling the truth, which is why anonymous posts are G-R-O-O-V-Y. So, that's exactly what I'm asking. Tell me what you think of me, though do it ( Read more... )

So, basically Johnna said some stuff that I feel appropriate for me to say.

I need to see people soon or else I'm gonna EXPLODE.

This Summer has geographically torn me away from the two most lovely people I have back in Maine. Well, at least the two most lovely people that actually care enough about me to spend vast amounts of time around me.

Johnna ( Read more... )