and here i stand, trying my hardest to move forward, but my feet seem to be cemented. cemented not to the floor, because i can freely move about, but cemented to some invisible force. i guess one can never truly move forward. what is forward? we all talk about living in the present. "living in the moment." can we ever really do that though? each ( Read more... )

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and i'm biting my nails so hard they snap in half and fall off. entire nails at a time fall to the floor and shrivel up. they look up at me as if they had eyes. if they had faces they would be smeared with remorse. "please accept this apology", my teeth clamored as they scurried across the floor. they just jumped out of my mouth and insisted on ( Read more... )

you lay there unhappy, imprisoned within your body. the sedative has kicked in long ago but you still fight. though your body is limp you try to stand, you have the will but you do not have the strength. you collapse. death is forced into your veins. it runs through your blood and targets the heart. as the life runs out of your body, the hole in my ( Read more... )

i really just want to piece everything together in my head. i need to learn how to be more supportive. i need to grow up a lot more, but i need to take it slow. it's hard to read people. sometimes you're almost sure you have them all figured out, then you step back. and figured out is not what they are. they are books written in another language. ( Read more... )

I don’t really know much about politics or government, so it may be a bit out of line writing this… It’s ridiculous how much they hide from us. Take for example the assassination of JFK. Look at the illusion the government created with the Gulf of Tonkin Incident. Or the “weapons of mass destruction.” The deceiving done by the government sadly ( Read more... )

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