with new found bravery
and the same old disappointment.

i shouldn't have said a damn thing to you.

there's a point where you begin to realize
that people have stopped giving a damn

and maybe you should too.

bullshit. i give up.

i could feel my face straining ( Read more... )

being fat sucks.

you looked at me.
i melted.
and as you turned to leave,
i solidified again
into a blurry remnant
of what i used to be.

yet i'm stuck here..in the..21st century. stuck in the era in which mcdonalds and krispy kremes dominate the average american diet..and where the average american diet thrives on atkins approved menus ( Read more... )

i'm fat
and somehow that makes me
invisible.
i don't understand.
people either
a) really can't see me
or
b) choose not to.
i'm sure it's b.
the pain of lifelong solitude
weighs heavy on my heart--
seemingly heavier than my body.
you'd think i'd be used to it
after almost seventeen years.

i'm a far cry
from--what?
what you want.
i'm the murmur
of legend
told from such a distance
that once i reached you
i was so distorted
you couldn't bear to hear me out.

i am thoroughly unhappy right now.
and even though i'm going to say
that i dont know what triggered all this,
i do;
but my tears could never say.
i've never gotten this down on paper before.
i've never faced it in black and white...
only i black and blue.

you look right through me
and my heart pounds a rhythmless beat.
i become an impossible tangle
with two beginnings.
because how can i have an end
if you still don't know i exist?