Basil

[countingcr0ws]

Title: Basil
Author: countingcr0ws
Pairing/ Characters: Yunjae
Rating: PG
Form: One-shot
Genre: AR, School Life, Slice-of-Life
Summary: The three months together hasn't done much to bridge the gap between them.
Inspiration: Chae Dong Ha, Reddit quote about pedestals,
Named after my crush.

Comments

[kattan69]

So sad that the relationship was not meant to be....sigh.

[countingcr0ws]

Ahh, I kinda think like it'll always be like that if you get together with your crush. Is it? At least I think I'll be like that. I'll be so giddy and stuff and oh. J was thinking of like cha mu won and the girl in ptb. Its like you idolize somebody so much that you're not on an equal footing. :( ahh, thank you for dropping a comment. I am like smiling to myself. Haha. In a sense I try to place less value on comments. But I can't help it sometimes. Ahh.

[lindabelinda99]

Spot. Because I'm crying. No you didn't dear. No you didn't.

[countingcr0ws]

I didn't what. :o I want to hug you. And in sorry. :( I didn't know that it'd draw such an effect. :(

[lindabelinda99]

yes, i want hug and i want hug now.

but yes,

THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. ARRRGGGHH. THE SADNESS THAT COMES WITH LEAVING SOMEONE YOU WANT TO BE WITH BUT CAN'T BECAUSE OF SOME REASON OR ANOTHER. AND IT JUST CAN'T BE HELPED AND IT JUST HAPPENS AND IT'S NOT WHAT THEY WANT BUT IT JUST IS BECAUSE ARGH LIFE. NO.

but yes. because that was nice. in a screwed up sad way. it was nice. especially the last part. like, i can imagine yunho's confuszo face. and also because the wae in the atmosphere is almost palpable. Sigh

so yea, do your happy. i know there's happy in there somewhere.

and thank you for writing <3333333 (these are hearts, not bums by the way)

[countingcr0ws]

I just spent like two hours or maybe whatever combing the shit out of my hair and like its so disgusting when you remove the comb and you see like things moving and like the towel I used yesterday has bugs and I'm like fuckkkk. And yeah. To say that I'm depressed doesn't even cover it. This is so messed up, man

[tapzz]

This is so sad and beautiful at the same time...the last line killed me...it hurts to know that their relationship was not meant to b..still wishful thinking...i missed ur writing style btw...thnx for sharing this..hope u 'll write many more.. :):)

[countingcr0ws]

Hahaha. Omg, thank you. Like seriously. Thank you. Like I guess that its that few words that you noticed my absence. Omg. /sobs incoherently. But yeah. I'm kinda moved, omg. (I am) and erm yeah. It was a really odd writing though. I kept thinking of cha dong ha's 'it was more exciting than my first kiss' line as I wrote. I guess that I've not been very poetic recently and I needed something to ground me. :( but thank you. Really.

[shinchul303]

A melancholy tale, but right.

Jae is in love, and Yunho is just flitting from blossom to blossom.

Sometimes one has to call it quits for self-protection.

Sadly...BTDT.

[countingcr0ws]

Ahh, erm I didn't mean it that way. Crap, I'm sorry that it read so poorly. /crap. But its kinda like Jaejoong has a crush on Yunho or like close to 9 months. Then he finally gets together with Yunho and they're together for 3 months when he realise that he's still thinking of Yunho as like his crush, instead of his boyfriend or confidant if you will. Like he can't get over the prior obsession with Yunho. And Yunho does love him, but Jaejoong pulls the its not you its me card. Like what can you say to that. That no, you're fine? And stuff. I've pulled that card though. :( but yeah. Its like Jaejoong's lacking. D: I'm sorry for writing so terribly. :(

[shinchul303]

Heavens! To quote a phrase, "It's not you, it's me." I got it wrong. Won't be the first time; we tend to bring our own experiences to whatever we're looking at, and I'm guilty of that here.

Love your writing (always have) and it's good to see you again!

[countingcr0ws]

ahh, i hope that your experience thing wasn't that bad, or at least, that it's over. everything's better when it's over when it already hurts much less, and ahh, /flails. i'm a softie when it comes to that. /stumbles over self to thank you profusely. i actually wanted to upload the tectonic plates bla bla fic ages back, but then bad wifi and then i kinda procrastinated and then i was thinking like it's so depressing, i should couple it with a few more stories and then it got longer and longer and i suddenly wrote a lot yesterday, so it's like oh manz, i should upload, erm, i digress. /cough. thank you though. and thank you so much for playing with me, like seriously. i swear. D:

[loyersyeraomar]

it really sad that jae can only look at yunho from far. i feel you jae!

[countingcr0ws]

Ahh, do you think that its real? I think that it is though. I honestly think like if I got together with my crush or smth, I'd be like /awed every single day. :/ :( so yeah. I guess like the best kind of relationship is those that begins on the same footing. :( and ahh, I still like this a lot even though its reading weirder and weirder.

[loyersyeraomar]

me too! if i ever got to be w/ my crush i will smile from ear to ear! like cray maniac! hahaha