Comments | country980: Confused as shit

country980

Confused as shit

Jul 05, 2005 00:20

Ugh. I wish I just had a switch to turn my damn brain off! It wont shut up. If I could just stop thinking and analyzing things, Id be so much better off. I just hate this grown ache inside me. I feel things getting really tense between me and Pup and I dont like them. Hes snapped at me several times and hung up on me once and wouldnt answer ( Read more... )

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inheavenwithme July 8 2005, 04:32:47 UTC

I was always there for you when you needed to talk.....if you would talk to me now, I would still be there.

country980 July 10 2005, 03:27:59 UTC

I have been here but youve been too busy going out with Bryce to see that. I dont know what was said to Michael and what was the truth; Im not going to argue about that. But if it was said that Im jealous of Bryce, than you really dont know me at all. You were the one who sat there dissing her non-stop behind her back and saying all that stuff about when she slept over and everything that she did and how nasty she was and now you go out with her all the time. It sort of makes me wonder what you say about me behind my back. I mean, if your going to hang out with her all the time and you say all that about her behind her back, it just makes me wonder. I am going to tell you what Ive told everyone else. Yes, I have changed, Im growing up because there just comes a point when you have to. That doesnt mean that you still cant go out and have a blast with the girls and just be goofy; but I am not going to be around drama, get involved in drama and Im not going to be around anyone who starts it. If you want to be friends with Bryca ( ... )

inheavenwithme July 11 2005, 18:57:48 UTC

Yea I have complained about Bryce before.....but no worst then the way that you complain about Megan H. As far as you and Megan saying that you haven't talked to me because I have been around Bryce so much.....I have only hung out with Bryce for a total of 5 no wait 6 times this summer the rest of the time I have been with Jessi, Heather, TJ, Kelly, David and few other people that I have met since school has been out. Yea I am sick of the drama shit as well, but you two are the ones who started it, when Michael said all that you should have had enough respect to ask me about it instead of stop talking to me. No i never said anything bad about you or Megan. All I said about megan was that I didn't know why she was mad at me and I wasn't going to apologize for anything because I haven't done anything to her. As far as you, all that was said is that since the wedding you have changed and that you don't talk to me anymore and that you blew me off that day we were supposed to go out and instead you went swimming with Megan H. So if the two ( ... )

country980 July 13 2005, 03:06:11 UTC

Well, I dont expect you to " run around kissing my ass and apologizing". I told you that I didnt care what Michael said about anything anymore. Hope- Ive been stressed to the max, Pup leaves for deployment on the 15th, almost a day away. I have to say goodbye to this man that Ive given my heart to without even realizing it. On top of that, add the wedding shit, shit going WAY down the hill at work, college, money, and just every day crap, when I heard what Michael said- whether it be true or not- it was just the straw that broke the camels back. You know me, I get mad and then I cool off and I see things sanely. And as for Meghan H, I talked everything out with her, I told her what was bothering me, why I would get mad and I would tell her what I said about her, everything except for Brad. She loves him and Im not getting in the middle of that. I tried to make my point on what I thought and she wanted to see things through so I backed off. That doesnt mean I was just going to sit and be quiet about it. I told my closest ( ... )

country980 July 14 2005, 04:58:04 UTC

I understand everything that is going on with you, but you act like everyone else has no problems of their own. Yes, I want to be friends, but that friendship shouldn't all be based on me, when was the last time you actually tried to contact me? I am happy you and Megan worked everythign out, so did me and Bryce and yea she is one of my best friends, especially in everything that she has helped me with and talked to me about lately.

country980 July 14 2005, 05:01:29 UTC

Rachel- yes, I want to be friends, but sonce when does a friendship rely on one person? You haven't tried to contact me once since the wedding. I understnad everything you are going through and how much it sucks, but you act like no one else in life has any problems, like it's only you and it should only be about you. I am happy that you and Megan worked everything out, so did me and Bryce and yes she has become one of my best friends, especially in this past week with everything that she has talked to me about and helped me with. I do want to be friends....but it just seems to me like you are too busy and have better things to do and better people to hang out with. so no, it's not in my hands.

country980 July 15 2005, 03:06:28 UTC

No, there is no way in HELL that i think Im the only one who has problems. If you really think so, go talk to either one of the megans, talk to my coworkers, talk to my family. God, maybe you really didnt know me. And i did try to contact you after the wedding. When I did you sounded like you were pissed off, I was letting you cool. Yes, I did forget about going out with you that wednesday, Im sorry, Ive told you that already. I didnt "dump you" to go with meghan. I honestly forgot, pardon me for being human. Im not going to sit here and argue about shit like whos hands its in. If you want to be friends, fine, just fucking say so and quit throwing shit in my face. I have apologized for anything that I have done to you, and you just sit there and keep tossing it back at me. But dont insult me or acuse me of crap that I havent or dont do. You arent acting like you really want this to work Hope and like you said, "Im not going to go kissing anybodys ass". Ive done enough of that and obviously you havent appreciated any of it ( ... )