I have a problem with control…I want it over everything, and if I don’t have it, it has an awful affect on me. When something doesn’t go my way, or the way in which I plan or expect it to go, I get frustrated, and with the frustration comes anger. I don’t know where this anger stems from, but this is how I’ve always reacted. My mom says even as a ( Read more... )

Luke 10:38-42 ( Read more... )

I just had a weird, yet exhilarating, spiritual experience. I’m not quite sure what to think of it, except that I know it’s exciting ( Read more... )

This morning I read John 20. My summary of it is this: After Jesus died and was placed in the tomb, on the third day Mary Magdalene went to see Him. When she didn't find Him there she was upset. But then Jesus appeared to her in the doorway. She didn't recognize Him right away, but when she did, she went and told the others what had happened, ( Read more... )

I think the Lord is telling me to not go on my trip. I have been planning this for SO LONG, and have been looking forward to it for months, but I don't think I'm supposed to go. First, the plans that I originally made fell through: Mandy was going to come, now she's not. I was going to stay with my friend, Dan, but couldn't get ahold of him. ( Read more... )

Well, lately I've learned a few things ( Read more... )

I was just thinking about how, in the last couple of weeks, I remembered how AWFULLY I treated my dad when I was growing up. My mom used to have me get on the phone with him and would say the most nasty things anyone would ever say to anyone. And when I was there visiting I was such a little terror. Especially to my step-mom. Those poor people ( Read more... )

I just watched the movie "Raising Helen". Helen is a girl who has a lot going for her, then her sister dies and leaves her three children to raise. Helen's life changes dramatically (for the worst in her opinion), and Helen feels that having to raise the children has ruined her life. Watching her go through that made me cry--it felt like it ( Read more... )

So it was a pretty intense/emotional weekend, and it's only Friday night. It was fun though. So, lately I've decided that I shouldn't be single, but God has other plans for my life, and a couple nights ago I told Him what I thought about that. Like in my last journal entry I mentioned His reply was "I am God and you are not", well, I guess He ( Read more... )

Man, had an interesting night last night. I didn't notice how much stress I had, but it all came out last night. Yes, I was PMSy so that didn't make anything easier,but it was a needed venting moment...time to express my true thoughts to the Lord and tell Him how I felt about things right now. I went for a drive late last night because I was SO ( Read more... )