took my lip ring out, applying at texas roadhouse in the next week. have to get my financial aid applications out, over a month late. i really don't think i can even go to college anymore, i have no money and no way to get it. repeating theme - i'm fucked

so my mom quit her job this morning. we have no medical coverage now, i have no way to pay for college and she wants to become a waitress at the texas road house. she says it is her "mid life crisis" as she is turning 40 in a few weeks. she wants to go back to school, become a medical transcriptionist(?) and never fucking do anything with her life ( Read more... )

finally, doctor's today @ 1:15
nyquil is like diet coke, just one calorie, not nearly enough. only three hours and fifteen minutes left, right?

"put the lime in the coconut and drink them both together, put the lime in the coconut and then you feel better ( Read more... )

so, my mom decided we aren't moving anymore. she had the uhaul van half way packed by the time i got home to help. she keeps saying she's crazy, i don't bother to disagree, the lady is fucked up, but i suppose the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. what is to the end of the summer? need another job. need to stop missing so much school. need to ( Read more... )

so, i went out for some food this afternoon and there were a shit load of kids sitting on the porch. a little boy looks at me and says "i think i broke my heart." i just looked at him kind of funny and said "uummmm, sorry?" this is what pissed me off, all the kids start laughing and pointing. personally, i'm a little confused because i am the last ( Read more... )

breathing, feels so good after something, everything, it just releases me into anything and i'm right back here.

tilting my head back, to stare at the light and watch the dust fall, inhaling and letting it all out with one simple breath and yet so much more.

i can smell vanilla, so good.

i broke a boy's heart today.