Sometimes I think I'm just meant to be alone forever. I can't be entirely happy with anyone but just myself..and my kitten. Males are just so oblivious to the world. Just because you're present doesn't mean you're in the moment Being in a relationship isn't just being business partners who occasionally are affectionate. Hmm tired...

It's odd how you can be wanted yet still feel unwanted all at the same time. I have no idea what's going on in my life. I have no idea what I want. I have no idea who I want. I feel an undescribable feeling of indifference. I don't have anything to look forward to. I feel no hope for better things. I feel trapped by my life and the decisions I've ( Read more... )

Soooo how do you tell someone that they're really sucking if everytime you see them they are really nice to you? However, when they are not physically in my presence, they are sucking. BIG TIME. Selfish, self-centered people just frustrate me to no end. Granted, I am occasionally selfish... I just wonder how you can be chronically selfish ( Read more... )

I'm hating lots of things right now...things that I used to love.

Is there anything I can do? I feel horribly lonely and stuck.

The first day is over and I am still anxious, but already in the lull of school routines. Sitting in the same auditorium all damn day is HARD. I think I can do it. I know I can do this school ( Read more... )

I'm about to start vet. school. Tomorrow. The dream of my lifetime. Tomorrow. It seems surreal and easily believable at the same time. The three days of orientation made me go from laid-back to very anxious. I was on the verge of a meltdown this afternoon. I still feel like I'm on the verge. Deep breaths and R-E-L-A-X. I'm totally unsure what this ( Read more... )

After reading a 500+ page book in a 3 days, I am sparked with creativity that will surely leave once my left brain is engaged at school. It is an undeniable truth that the science based curriculum is designed to squash your right brain, squeezing it of all artsy twinges; facts are the religion. Instead I am channeling this spark in writing. I haven ( Read more... )

I am smart. I am loved. I am super hot. I am beautiful. I am successful. I get things done. I am accomplished. I am liked. I can dance. I am good at what I do. I learn quickly. I will not be poor my whole life. I have friends who love me. I am gifted. I am passionate. I am nice. I am thoughtful. I am a damned good catch ( Read more... )

I'm waiting to go to work. I feel like I'm waiting in line on Death Row ( Read more... )

It's been a few months since I posted last, but I figured that I might as well. Things aren't much different. I have a crappy job at the Home Depot, but I suppose it gives me money--or something. It also has given me the gift of big biceps. I think I'm going to quit soon though. Hopefully I can tough it out until August; just for the sake of not ( Read more... )