let's have a confidence vote of "shut the fuck up." may i just say that after 10 o'clock....we shut the fuck up. no more IM's making noise, no more phones ringing. no more loud, boisterous, bitch laughter. shut the fuck up you stupid blonde whore who leads my friends on. stupid bitch who can never be quiet. my sleeping pills are kicking in and ( Read more... )

so last night i'm online. someone sends me a message. i think it's ben or molly effing w/me again. you know those websites you can type in someone's SN and it's a computer? well to make a long story short it was rob's "ma." good thing i didn't curse, lol ( Read more... )

am i bipolar? i swear...today started out great. i was in a great mood. and then after lunch i just got pissy! i don't even know why. ugh it's very frustrating. i guess i feel like it's all great w/stupid and then he just gets to me. and i know he's joking but still...if i'm in a good mood let me act like a jackass. k bye.

so halloween was hilarious! well i guess i should start with last weekend ( Read more... )

i will never finish that conversation. let's just say it led to a few days of severe inner turmoil. but we had a talk and everything is great now. i'm in a good mood again..i've been kinda down for a few weeks but i'm good now i think. i'm kinda tired so i might take a nap. i ain't gonna go to work today i don't feel like it. there hasn't really ( Read more... )

so i survived the bladder infection..yesss! i'm still medicated but that's okay with me..i can walk, you know? so anyway mom knows that i have sex now...i mean ...bladder infection, i have a boyfriend, come on...anyway mom isn't home this weekend. so i'm gonna go home and hang out w/dad the whole time. haha...an amusing anecdote...yesterday ben ( Read more... )

well i'm still sick today. i feel like absolute shit. rob hasn't called me or anything...go figure. i don't know when his mom is leaving b/c i didn't ask. not that it'd matter anyway. he's supposed to come over....some time. and so i haven't left the hall today. i don't want to go outside b/c that'd be dumb i'll just get really tired again. and i ( Read more... )

okay so gold rush went pretty well. we made that sign last night "we'll 'never quit' loving ben lynde". it was cute. i wore my gypspy outfit. i met rob's mom. she was really nice. i felt like a retard b/c i didn't say a lot around her. i didn't say a lot today period. i feel like absolute SHIT. the infirmary is closed for the weekend i think. i'll ( Read more... )

well gold rush is todoay. i'm headed over to the square in ....either half an hour or an hour. i want to get there a little early and walk around. we'll see though. so right now i'm just listenin' to music. i think i'm gonna die. i had a wal mart rush last night at 2. i bought water and cranberry juice. i know what i'm talkin' about...and NO ( Read more... )

so we're gettin rather intimate and then fucking survivor comes on. then...pooft...all is gone. i can't even explain how i felt. i wasn't mad...i was struck to the soul. and i know me and you may too, when i'm feeling any type of emotion i can't hide it well. so i was tossing stuff around b/c i was "trying to find my glasses" (i was but this was an ( Read more... )