sometimes, like right now, i wish i had the balls i used to ( Read more... )

I'm sorry, I've lost my mind, I've completely fallen apart today. my sanity is non existent.
yeah I know, sorry doesn't cut it.

everyday I hear more bullshit.
apparently I'm sketchy, a liar and a scumbag.
love that people love to talk...
also love that people just don't say the shit to my face. sick of fucking liars and people that play fucking bullshit games. I wish I was there I'd be picking people left and right.

I keep writing today ( Read more... )

I should've done it when I had the opportunity. perhaps it would've made things much easier. its not like it wasn't considered and then abandoned all in the frame of less than a few nanoseconds. you don't realize your value, your worth. you throw it all away and then fall down yourself refusing the help you once wanted so... I dream of you ( Read more... )

great chris is drunk. fucking awesome.

I could throw up right now.

on a lighter note, I no longer live on long island and
I'm not looking back.

I hate packing, I've been at it for way too long now. four maybe five hours and I'm not even close to being done. I can't wait til I finsh I can't wait to load a trailer and then drive six hours so I can unload the trailer and then unpack all my shit ( Read more... )

sitting in my truck making at least 64 and change an hour watching the snow on my windshield melt. its all about beating the system tonight. bored as fuck no one to talk to, no one next to me. plowing after 12am sucks it really does. no sooner had I started to fall asleep my phone rang, 'chris, its kevin brown can you make it out?' 'yeah, I'm ( Read more... )

everyone jumps when the announcement comes over the loud speaker that boarding is about to begin. I don't even flinch, either way I'm getting on the plane and ill be sitting in my assigned seat just like every other person on the plane will be doing. it doesn't matter whether I stand on line for 10 minutes or if I stay seated and wait either way ( Read more... )