Well, Russ and I had the meeting with his lawyer.  Things are NOT looking OK.  In fact they are looking very dismal.  If Russ is convicted then we will have to separate and that is NOT what I want.  I don't want my marriage to go to hell because of some jealous stupid ex wife.  He will never see his kids unsupervised,  his name will be blemished, ( Read more... )

Well, I got married last March.  Things were going great until recently.  His ex-wife is starting some crap and even went as far as calling child protective services.  The  allegations are not true, however they are putting a terrific amount of stress on my marriage.  He doesn't talk to me about his feelings, he shuts me out completely.  How am I ( Read more... )

Russ smacked my Anna's butt. That made me sooooo angry.      he had no right to do that. he wouldnt like it if i hit one of his kids, no matter what the circumstances were.  therefore, he has no right to do that.  i dont even smack my kids, i usually yell at them. i am so mad right now, if there were a place to sleep other than in my bedroom ( Read more... )

what i said in my last entry i had put alot thought into what i said.  it was not a mistake, and i have no idea why i said what i did, i love him and i am in love with him and i am glad i married him when i did.  hes the best thing that has happened to me and i appreciate him more than anything. i love his kids and his kids love me and my kids ( Read more... )

well, i have been married for 2 weeks and 2 days. i don't feel married, i feel like I'm just shacking up with him.  and I'm not like i have to see him every minute of the day. i do miss him when hes not here. and we get along great. I'm wondering if i made a big mistake jumping into marriage and not feeling like i will die without him.  if anything ( Read more... )

Looks like that on Wednesday I will be married to Russ. I am very excited. hes everything that i ever wanted in a life  long partner. I know we are going to last forever. hes a great man to me and my kids even though he likes to watch dumb things on TV (military channel?!?!?!) We got a lot of things in common and that will make a great marriage. I ( Read more... )

Russ and I are getting married next week, when is not the sure part but next week is....  i know one thing, he makes me happy and i want to spend the rest of my life with him. He makes me very happy. And i think i make him very happy as well. The only concern i have is the kids and how well they get along, that is a big thing. our kids mean alot to ( Read more... )

Good God i was reading my journals, i was a crazy mad person. but everything is good now. i met a guy and we are getting married in april,  if not sooner. hes funny and fun to be around and hes making me a better person overall.  i dont where to begin about everything. so much has happened.  im on the phone with russ right now. he makes me smile ( Read more... )

hmm. where to begin? well the highlight of the past 4 months is that i finally had sex with brad after oh, about 6 YEARS!!!! it was incredible. he made me feel like i was something special, someone worthwhile. and he says he wants to hook up again!! im gonna do it. i love him and i want to be with him again. hes the only one that i can see ( Read more... )

wow, i havent been here in forever! well alot of stuff has happened, some good, some bad and some things i would rather forget...lol ( Read more... )