I can't believe this. I can honestly say this is the most angry I have ever been in my entire life, which means a lot coming from me. I'm so angry I am literally sick to my stomach. There is so much animosity for so many different people bottled up inside me right now I can't decide what to do. It's almost comical how much I hate everyone involved ( Read more... )

This will make you stronger.

I do feel a little used. I guess I just don't understand it. I don't understand the need for him, or the need to wake up in the middle of the night to go hang out with him. And what's weird is that I can't seem to get away. No matter which path my mind wanders down, it all leads back to her. So I'm kinda screwed. But I can't stay in this holding ( Read more... )

I'm actually going to break my streak of non-entry just so I can remind myself that I'm back. I feel good again, and I'm not sure why, but I'm just gonna run with it. Thank you to everyone who helped and supported my during this...thing...with Sarah, you really don't know how much you guys helped. Anyway, I've got way better things to do than sit ( Read more... )

I don't have anything to say really, except I wish I could change it all.

So, new years kind of blew. There was one part that was good, and that was REALLY good, but it didn't really have anything to do with the new year. I'll spare everyone the details, but suffice it to say that there was blowage.

I dunno, I thought I had more to say, but I guess there really is nothing to talk about yet this year.

I like Christmas (or any holiday for that matter) because it's a time where you can just kind of get away from things for a while...

However, I can;t stop thinking about all the things that I have to do as soon as Christmas is over, so here's a list:

1. I need to get a better job, one which pays at least $9.00 an hour.
1-a. Lowes
1-b. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish things had been different. Sometimes I wish I hadn't been betrayed by almost everyone I've ever known, and sometimes I wish I knew how to trust people and let go of the past. On the other hand, my distrust of most people is probably what has kept me alive/out of jail until now. I hate how jealous I get, how angry I get, how I can't ( Read more... )

This is why I can't talk to you.

If you've never listened to "Spacelord" by Monster Magnet, you should, because it will change your life. Well, okay, it probably won't change your life, but you should listen to it anyway because I told you to ( Read more... )