so yes ( Read more... )

I got my upright bass. It is really not neccesarily pretty nor does it sound that great but it is mine and I can play it. Right now Ben and Lauren are upstairs at my apartment and they are loud and obnoxious. Oh well ( Read more... )

Today ( Read more... )

We moved. Kevin, Brian and I found an apartment. We moved ( Read more... )

My audition is tomorrow. I just took some Melatonin that should kick in in about an hour. I better smoke a cigarette before I get too tired ( Read more... )

Well, we meet again? I just finished my online-music class bullshit. I am never taking an online class again! It is was too open-ended for me and I cant argue with people like I want to. This one guy tried to say that music therapy has no effect on contemporary music. WTF?!?!?! How can you even begin to think that when you probably walk by " ( Read more... )

I have writer's block and am so upset. This should be the time that I can actually write amazing lyrics and can't get them to paper. The one thing blocking me is that I don't understand what I'm feeling so I can't put it into song. I can try and write it out ( Read more... )

So I stayed up too late again, big fat fucking deal! It always happens. I don't enjoy going home begins that is when the pain starts. I hate having to deal with it. It's like continuing to have people in my presence makes me forget the fact that I hurt so fucking much. I can't pinpoint the pain. I just know that I don't feel it when I'm not alone. ( Read more... )

I'm sitting with my knees locked wondering what exactly this new year has in store for me. I began it with me not reacting like I usually would. I've grown up so much in the past 6 months that I am a little scared at who I am. Kurt isn't likely to let a situation go without fucking it up. But tonight that is exactly what I did. I kept my mouth shut ( Read more... )

So, life as we (I) know it has taken a dramatic turn! Gasp* Drama ( Read more... )