Comments | crankybabyduck: you're beautiful! and i'm a total wreck and almost every day!

crankybabyduck

you're beautiful! and i'm a total wreck and almost every day!

Jan 29, 2005 14:25

i was crying all last night after jay went home. i was fine while he was here, we had a great time. we had sex 3 times. then i was a total wreck after he left. he told me he wants me to tell him when i'm really upset now, but i was honestly fine until he left. cuz yesterday i was sad, and i wouldn't tell him that was wrong, and i just kept saying i ( Read more... )

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_waxbutterfly January 29 2005, 11:48:47 UTC

Amanda, he's not worthy of you. I know you love him, and I'm not going to tell you to leave him. I know how you feel and with all the shit I find myself going through with kevin, I'm not one to judge. I just want you to be careful. How would Jay feel if you went to the movies with Chris? He'd be pissed about it, but you can't be pissed about Ashley? I just think that he's acting like he's 12, not 21. Your my best friend and I love you and I think you deserve to be happy. And if that's with Jay, then so be it. I just really think you can do a million times better than some kid who goes to the movies with his ex, and won't even say I love you.

crankybabyduck January 29 2005, 12:51:19 UTC

Jay does make me happy. even when he makes me sad he makes me SOOOO happy!! that's why i don't cry in front of him anymore. i'm always alone. because i don't want him to think he makes me sad. it's my own insecurities that make me cry. it's not him, it's me. and i shouldn't be getting upset when he wants to see ashley because i'm his girlfriend, and they're just friends. i don't know whats wrong with me. i'm just going to give him his freedom and i'm sure he wont let me down. and about the whole 'i love you thing'... i don't expect him to say it anytime soon. but when he does, yah, i'll be ready to say it back.

i'm gonna do anything to make this relationship work. i wont give up.

your_safe_bett January 29 2005, 14:00:04 UTC

i would be so hurt if my boyfriend went out of his way NOT to say i love you. it's okay if he's not ready yet but it seems like it would hurt so much to hear "i don't love you."

hmm.

anathebandit January 30 2005, 08:31:30 UTC

Okay Amanda, for one, don't worry about Ashley and Jay cus I don't think either of them would be willing to go back into that again. And what he said was completely and utterly assholeish. I'd cut him off if I were you. Cus theres no excuse for that kinda bullshit.

pissed anathebandit January 30 2005, 20:11:56 UTC

first off i DIDNT go to the movies with ashley, second of all we are friends, our break up was not negative..now amanda and chris's was so its a completely different story and as far as the "i love you" thing why should i say it if i dont that would be a fake relationship, i express how i feel NOW not what someone wants to hear, when i feel that way i will say it without hesitation, thats why i say i dont love you..however i do care about you very much and i think that isnt an asshole thing to say...somethings i say are left out and its pissin me off to have to defend myself to people who dont even know me...

mintchocolate24 January 31 2005, 07:00:49 UTC

i'm glad he makes you happy, but honestly? he doesn't deserve you, he really doesn't. by the sounds of it, i'd be crying all the time too. he said some really bitchy uncalled for things, and you're sooooo much better than that and than him.
(plus, what the heck was he doing in your text messages anyway?!! thats an invasion of your privacy. he must not understand girls, because we talk to our friends about our problems, boy problems included. it's just the way we are.)