so... i think i am going to discontinue writing in my livejournal. i am using myspace now, and i want everybody on here on my friends list to add me on myspace if you have one! all my journal entries are going to be in there from now on, so even if you're still interested and you don't have myspace you can check it out. you can find me at myspace. ( Read more... )

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my mom bought a new truck!! she bought a chevy silverado and it is gorgeous!! so now that she doesn't need the tahoe anymore, she is selling/giving it to me!! and i now have my own transportation!!! except i don't have my license yet, so i can't drive it unless my mom or jay is with me. cuz i just have my permit, so i can only drive with someone ( Read more... )

i've been sick and outa school all week. i have a UTI. it hurt bad. but i'm all better now ( Read more... )

i'm at school right now. hanging out in the library till 4 ( Read more... )

so me and jay are doing great. i am sooo happy!! i love the way he makes me feel. we fight sometimes, but not alot. and when we do fight, we always work through our problems. things are going perfectly!! every night when i talk to him he says "good night sweetheart." and my heart flutters a lil bit. it's great!! my mom is letting him sleep over ( Read more... )

i was crying all last night after jay went home. i was fine while he was here, we had a great time. we had sex 3 times. then i was a total wreck after he left. he told me he wants me to tell him when i'm really upset now, but i was honestly fine until he left. cuz yesterday i was sad, and i wouldn't tell him that was wrong, and i just kept saying i ( Read more... )

my mom and john broke up again. this is either the 4th or 5th time. i've lost count. she said it's for good this time. i don't believe her. it's hard for me to take my mom seriously anymore. i'm growing up and i'm seeing her more as a person, than as my mother. and i don't think that's a bad thing. i just think that it complicates things. like, she ( Read more... )

after i slept with dan, it was like the worst feeling in the world. overwhelming guilt. somewhat in disbelief. i was disgusted with myself. i didn't want to tell jay. i didn't want to hurt him. but i couldn't keep it a secret. he had the right to know. so i told him. he was very upset. at first he was silent. then he cried. he kept saying "how ( Read more... )

i got really trashed last night. and i cheated on jay. with dan cole.

i'm on the phone with jay right now. he's really upset with me.