And I had wished he'd stayed in Boston. Now that he's back, the house feels different. Even though we're not in the same room, I can still feel something different now; it's this feeling of hollowness that's been filled in with air. And you wonder, is this good or bad? It's neither, really. It just is ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here for a while, there was nothing to say. A lot of that has been going around, and I still don't have much to talk or write about, but I figure I'd write a few things down before I forget all about them ( Read more... )

For two weeks, my dad's girlfriend, the tyrant, lived with my dad and I. I ended up getting into a fight with her, and I was angrier than I can remember for a long while. Maybe two years. Enough to quiver from anger and have no control over my body. With all the shit I keep in, I always explode when I finally get angry. But for me, it's a happy ( Read more... )

Things have been going a little better. While I'm still depressed, the week has been alright to me, so I'm feeling kinda happy right now. And while my mood is deteriorating a little, things are still alright ( Read more... )

I tried to sleep, but it didn't work. I laid in bed for two hours thinking too much of "what ifs," and thoughts one shouldn't have thought, especially at my state of mind ( Read more... )

Today sucked ( Read more... )

Life has been...uneventful ( Read more... )

I counted, and realized for six years, I've been sad and without purpose. And that's nobody's fault but my own ( Read more... )

Today was so bad.

I'm sick.

I had a conversation I didn't want to have

I may be fired from work.

And most of all, I am incompetent to myself and to the things around me.

Today threw me off from Bush winning the election. And, while I'm mad, and appalled by the people of the United States, perhaps even sickened by them, I know I have to get over it. But, I'm not going to stop complaining until today's ended ( Read more... )