jeez i always forget about this thing for so long but love remembering it ( Read more... )

wen people talk it sounds ridiculous. always.

its almost funny just listenin to wat people coose to make serious. or sad. or sinificant. not even subjects just words.

i am tired of words. sooo tired. everyone sould stop talkin for an entire day. i wonder wat else i could percieve in its absence.

i love my classes

i miss people

i like doubletake

i dont miss my family

i miss people

how can anyone give me anything when i never know what i want.

what do i want?

more. i want more.

i am in the same place i was a year ago.

i want someone else to bring me out of it. because i can't do it myself.

its been a long time since i've posted.

i've been busy. or negligent. i dont know, something like that.

i need something. i dont know what it is.

i am the same amount of confused as usual.

i want to go home.

as i get older i realize (very annoyingly) that i was raised to always question myself. which is good in theory, but as things become heavier and more significant with maturity, it is a huge problem that i have never been allowed to trust myself. i HATE it. so the past year has been me learning like a little kid how to believe what i really feel ( Read more... )

is anyone out there?

but it's fixed now ( Read more... )

the world i'm in right now is not bad. i am doing things i want to be doing, i am living in a way that is ok with me. but somehow its not quite real. it's just artificial, summer is artificial for me. that would even be all right for a while.. but the thing is..all the other people are still in the other world, that one that i come into sometimes, ( Read more... )

first of all because this might be a likely way for multiple people to understand this.. KRISTIN AND EDEN and whoever else bonnarooish etc.. i hate to say this but we are NOT gonna be able to fit 7 people AND all our stuff which include tents and things in a 7 person van. i mean i just really think its a bad idea.. and i realize you might have no ( Read more... )