Why do I even bother? It just gets me all worked up for no good reason. I am driving myself crazy thinking about it. And now cue to the screaming.....AHHHHHHH FUCK GRRRRRRRRRRR ......ah, now I feel much better.

It's been a month since the last time I logged a message, so I figured it was about time to do so. Not much to say but a lot is going on inside my head. I wish I could just write it all down and leave it for a higher power to come and answer my questions and take them away so that I wouldn't have to worry about any of it any more. Well, not all ( Read more... )

So, it's Monday night and I've been thinking about a lot of different things today. Besides worrYing about my test ( which i passed, go me! )I have come to a conclusion ( Read more... )

What is the next step? I have a choice that I am not ready to make. Well, maybe It's not a choice but a thought that I need to fight, but it's becoming a choice bc a friend is trying to make me make it for her. I love you Stina but I can't make this decision for you. I love Chris and I can't help but think this way. It wasn't a mistake in ( Read more... )

I use to think that I had all the answers to all my problems.....that was back when I did drugs. Well, needless to say, it has been a very very very long time since I have even touched those kind of things. Now, all my solutions become just one thing...or should I say one person. Christian! Ever since October, 10th 2000 my life has changed more ( Read more... )

Ok, this is the first time since I was 16 that I haven't had some sort of income coming in on my own. I can not stand being in my house any longer. I though these past few days would be a good break from working and school and everything else, but it's only been magnified by reality. Thank god for Stina and her help with my new, beautiful, starry ( Read more... )

pointless, pointless, pointless......no use for a name.
i hate you and you and you.
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