my new lj is:

cockitandpullit

for once, i'll be completely honest ( Read more... )

the only thing left to believe in is nothing.

nothing is everything in a world of non-believers.

you must learn to hate before you can experience love.

breeding hatred is the baptism of our generation.

faith is lost.

replaced by the convieniences of man.

our race closes our eyes to everything beautiful.

living in a corrupted dream,

which they have ( Read more... )

breathe in more deeply,

fill your lungs with fire.

does my voice scream loud enough?

no.

does my heart beat fast enough?

no.

slit my throat,

question if the blood is real.

enter my mind.

enter my soul.

enter my body.

surrender to love.

everything and nothing could never explain.

and as the world turns black,

as each passing day grows colder-

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::thursday::

becca and i went to the mall.

bought: napoleon dynamite, anchorman, ring, earrings, candy, rainbow eyeshadow.

talked to mason for the first time in months.

went to nicole's house later:: hunter bit my dad in the face; watched napoleon dynamite with nicole, morgan, kelly, and denise.

::friday::

new years eve= !

woke up around ten.

ate ( Read more... )

::::tuesday=+ + + + + + + + + +::::

woke up around 11

hot water heater's fixed!

went to max's. :) how do i explain it......i dont think i can. being with him today was just INCREDIBLE.

incredible. how naive, you think.

YOU THINK WRONG.

it's too much for my mind to process. it feels almost as if our hearts beat as one. our souls are connected by ( Read more... )

merry christmas!

these past few days have been interesting. . . : : :

::THURSDAY::

electricity went out at 2 in the morning. woke up. cold:50. dropped mom off at Air-Mod (heat). dad and i went to the mall (got stuck in the parking lot). came home. still no heat. mom and dad set up a kerosene heater in the kitchen and slept int he dining room. they ( Read more... )

Yesterday

watched Elf=good.

Last Night

Ben's Christmas party= egg rolls, pizza rolls, buckeyes, guitars

Napoleon Dynamite= GOOD GOOD GOOD. :)

Today

kissing in the snow= *smile*

MAX=stimulating ;)

It's difficult to understand.....how something so  powerful can be experienced by a being so insignificant as a human.

strange, i say.

And i conclude:

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:) misty =  good good cd, chocolate, and bracelet

:) natalie= ani difranco cds (!), now and laters (!)

:) bryan= donnie darko (!!!)

:) scoot= cute little owl

im happy like so:    :)

*sigh*

but everything always has to be so complicated. and that isnt any good.

but ah....what can i do? i cant explain anything, because i'm just as difficult. but ( Read more... )

you know, life is funny. And i dont mean it in the sarcastic, annoying sense of the word. I mean, GENUINELY FUNNY. something that would make even timid old ladies giggle.

And all this time we take it SO FUCKING SERIOUSLY. I mean, they;ve been telling us since we can remember "You've only got one life to live." So I say, take advantage of it. A joke ( Read more... )