i haven't  posted in a while.
there's not much to say except the amount of change in my life is amazing.
i need a day to myself. to just reflect and do some work on me.

christmas has been good. i hope everyone elses has been good too!

i love my best friend sarah fry.

i'm glad she's back and i'll be devastated when she leaves for college.

somebody please explain to me how somebody can do this two weeks after the first i love you. we waited 4 and a half months to say it. all i want to hear him say is he's not ready for it. i know it can't be taken back but we can slow down. i just don't understand. there's something missing. whether it's another girl or he's freaking out from ( Read more... )

lets take a look at the post i almost posted last night. it was auto saved.
 its an instinct. but i'm pretty sure i'm about to get broken up with.

he's stopped showing any interest--calling, texting, saying i love you first, anything.
i miss when i had my surgery and he came and sat with me for hours until my mom finally kicked him out.

i wish i knew ( Read more... )

my life is great.
seriously, i have so much to be greatful for. 
and i am.
for once, i am.

even having NOT mad it to semis,
hah finals. hahaha yeah right.
even having tonsilitis and getting them out (june 15th)
even living 20 minutes away from life
its all worth it for what i have

i have a relationship with God
i have a boyfriend. its all good.

my self esteem has plummeted
i don't know what happened.

i don't want to go back to old things. ugh.

i've prayed more in the past month than i probably have in my entire life.
things feel good.
i feel good.

i'm in a good place
things are right.

its been a while.
much has happened.
i have a new boyfriend who is absolutely amazing. the other night, he surprised me after practice. i walked outside after being super stressed out and low and behold there is cody ray parked next to me waiting for me. it was incredibly cute and i was over joyed. no boy has ever really done cute things. i've heard ( Read more... )

today sarah and i took a stop sign from the side of the road.
it was funny

pole and all
we drove with it hanging out her trunk

it was so funny.
it's in the guard room now.
bwahahaha

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