so i decided that i want a new LJ. time for [another] change. alot of painful memories re-reading this shit. and i'm tryina move on. i may or may not delete this yet.. i still havent deleted my last one lol .. so this may stick around. but im not sure.
its just another step in moving on with my life...

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so uh .. that conversation wiht matt is still goin on ( Read more... )

who would have thought he would be the one to make me open my eyes? the one who left me blindsided. who helped me fuck up my whole life.. hes really tryina get me back on track. we're really sittin here talkin about what the fuck i'm gonna do with my life. somethin i DONT talk to people about. mainly because i REALLY DONT KNOW. i keep sayin im ( Read more... )

my updates get fewer and far between these days.. i'm never home. there is SO much going on these days and its like ahhhh! right now im only home for about half n hour.. waiting for matt to call. gonna go chill.. shmoooke :) haha well this weekend was interesting lol .. definatly crazy ( Read more... )

so i'm trying not to panic. and i'm trying not to cry. I dont need a mental breakdown today.. but its been a fucking year. this past year flew by .. and iidk .. its like i cant help but think what my life would be like if i had stayed. if i didnt leave the people i came wit.. if i had laid off the LQ and the weed JUST a little bit. i fucked up. but ( Read more... )

The Rules ( Read more... )

waking up to 3 missed calls, a myspace message, and a comment ( Read more... )

UGHTEJGBSDJGNSKJDG ( Read more... )

this is the longest ive gone without an update in a long time ( Read more... )

ive got a million and one things running through my mind and i really think im losing it ( Read more... )