fall is coming and i'm feeling good. i'm getting excited about school and i'm really enjoying my time in frederick. i'm gonna try to visit boston soon. I think i'm gonna go to california for like 2 weeks. just for a change of scenery and a visit. also, mexico city for new years is lookng increasingly possible. i wish travel was cheaper  :( i won't ( Read more... )

want and desire are such seemingly human feelings ( Read more... )

Fucking terrifying:

http://www.federaljack.com/2009/09/03/new-bill-to-outlaw-organic-farming/

Yesterday after work i got a massage from kevin and it was super relaxing. unfortunately, i feel my back tensing up again already. I'm holding all my stress in my right shoulder blade area. i think it might be barista related- because i'm constantly holding ( Read more... )

God, one more reason to think anderson cooper is awesome.



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Dave drove me and alex to baltimore last night to see Vince in the hospital. It was really hard and really sad to see him like that. But i'm glad we went.  I was having a hard time facing it and wasn't able to get sad about it- and that made me feel really bad, because i didn't/couldn't have an emotional response or connection to it. But going, ( Read more... )

vince is really sick. he's in the hospital and they dont know what's wrong with him, but they think its pretty serious. i just want to see him

ugh, regret is one of the worst feelings. As fall approaches and people are preparing to go back to school, i think about going to brandeis in the spring, and i'm just not excited.  ...at all.     and I think that's a pretty bad sign, because i should be really really excited about it. I'm just realizing more and more that I think I made the wrong ( Read more... )

last night around 9 i got a call from Yahya- the sexy german- apologizing for not showing up earlier , because he couldn't get a ride and didnt have my number to tell me he couldn't make it. (he was supposed to meet me at nola at 3, and i waited for him and he didn't show up. so i emailed him my number if he still wanted to try to do something). he ( Read more... )

why is it that men only want to fuck me or marry me, but none of them seem to want to date me ( Read more... )

still putting off the france entry. but since i've been back, here's what's up ( Read more... )