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clearing my head
i'm not really sure what i want to say right now... but i feel compelled to write this all out after being home alone for the past 4 days. it's just, like i said, i've been home alone and bored, plus, i've always had an appreciation for your insights, or... something ( Read more... ) -
on my current mental/emotional state
i am quickly slipping into a depression ( Read more... ) -
on packing/the move
i have been rather up & down lately, as usual ( Read more... ) -
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there have been a lot of changes in the past 4 weeks since i have written here. i can't even get into them all now, because they are great, happy, momentous things... and i, right now, am feeling none of those ( Read more... ) -
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well... things are getting interesting now ( Read more... ) -
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alright...so i've been meaning to start keeping my lj updated more, but i've also recommitted myself to a real, live, paper journal - for now it has to be one step at a time. i'm still not completely consistent, either, so i dont want to stretch myself to thin and just quit everything in a few weeks like i always tend to do ( Read more... ) -
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well. an interesting weekend, the first completely without al. while i'm really looking forward to new things, but the time at home is just a painful reminder of being alone ( Read more... ) -
one week
it has been one week since i moved in with my mom & her bf in oswego. it has been one week since al & i broke up. it has been one week of torturous train rides & complete head.fuckery. it has been one week of complete emotional instability, even though i am the one who left al. it has been one week of heart.break, both in watching mom & ed joke ( Read more... ) -
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i am going to be moving this weekend. moving in with my mom & her bf. in the suburbs. totally not what i was expecting or wanting, but i think it will work out for the best. instead of paying rent, i'm paying "rent" - my mom's gonna put the money away so it's there when i need it ( Read more... ) -
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so a quick update, though i dont really have time to get into all that's happened in the past week/two. (that and i dont like updating because i dont like where my computer has been in the past year in this apartment... but that will be changed soon ( Read more... )