the past couple of weeks i have felt emotionally dead...nothing felt right and i just didnt feel like me..i didnt find myself smiling as much or laughing as much either which just made me feel like there was something wrong w. me...i didnt go a day without waking up and crying and feeling empty and worthless....but now that im back at school i ( Read more... )

yeah so basically i am sitting here waiting until it is time to leave for JFK....i think its absolutely incredible how the only time it snows the whole entire time im home is when its time for me to get on a plane but w/e........so back to the 'seo i go today...i thought that i was gonna be alot more excited than i actually am, but rite now im ( Read more... )

basically it is 3am and i cant sleep 'cuz i am flippin' wiredddd so i decided that maybe just maybe id start writing in my lj again...id really like to try and keep up w/ it b/c i decided it would be oh so lovely to just have a nice lil place to put some great memories from my freshman year at college but we'll c how that goes ( Read more... )

lately ive been thinking soooo much..its like i have 389029235 rocket ships blasting off at the same time...w/ each new discovery, idea or concept i feel enlightened and extremely content...ive become extremely interested in the question "why"...i feel like thats all i ask myself...."why do people do that", "why do i act like that", "why do people ( Read more... )

there is offically 1 more month till i go to college and ive decided that the rest of this summer has to be lived up to the highest potential....theres gotta be more partying, more girls nites, more laughs, more fun and especially more doing crazy things i never thought i would do....im offically not content w/ just saying my summer was ok....this ( Read more... )

today at work me and ashley pondered this...a) how the hell do woman w/ watermelon sized boobs get into a bra....b) where the hell do they get those bras....and c) can boobs that big really be sexi....im talking like huge like foot long boobs...responses appreciated <3

its weird how as soon as i clear my mind it gets clouded up so fast....all it takes is just 1 smile, 1 hug, 1 kiss, 1 laugh and it just sends me back to a place i wish i could be at again...a place of love, happiness, and joy.... a time where my breath had been taken away but yet i never felt so alive...ugh i would do anything for that again... ( Read more... )

this is probably going to be the most random entry ever but its basically just all the thoughts i had at work today b/c i was so ridiculously bored ( Read more... )

today i realized exactly how much music effects my moods and how a simple jingle can just totally turn my frown upside down..so basically my word to the wise is when ur down find some happy upbeat music instead of sad, depressing, emo so to speak music and u may be surprised at the results :)....p.s. to any1 who was at short beach this afternoon ( Read more... )

yeah so its been a while since ive written and im not quite sure y im starting to write again...whether the reason be to capture the exciting adventures of the summer, the pains of lost love, or just to blabber on and on about stuff that no one but myself would care about, i hope that getting my thoughts out can just help me maintain my own mental ( Read more... )